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needed to make the final break, that ithad put the nail in the proverbial coffin of her shitty relationship.
    So it was with an almost homicidal frustration that I found Devon the Jackass sitting in our living room the next night acting like he belonged there.
    His feet were propped up on the coffee table as he ate a sandwich, crumbs going everywhere. For a moment, I saw red. I gripped my keys in my hand and thought about flinging them at his arrogant, overly large head. You know, right before I kneed him in the junk.
    Was this for real? Was Renee really going to allow this guy back into our home after he had left her, by herself, at Compulsion the night before?
    I wanted to tell him to get his fucking feet off the furniture. I wanted to scream at Renee to wake up and smell the sucky-boyfriend coffee.
    But I didn’t, because painful experience had taught me that saying anything would only accomplish the opposite.
    Nothing pushed two people together more than a case of Romeo and Juliet syndrome brought on by thinking the whole world was against them.
    It was at times like this that the similarities between Renee and my sister were so excruciating that it took my breath away.
    I had played the sneering judgmental card once upon a time, and it had cost me dearly. Self-righteous disappointment got me nowhere.
    So I had reined in my anger, and I had given my friend a smile, one that she hesitatingly returned, before going to my room to do my homework.
    The days passed, and my relationship with Renee came to an uneasy standstill. She was still with her jerk of a boyfriend, and there still wasn’t a whole lot I could do about it.
    But for the time being I had to focus my energies elsewhere.
    Tonight was the first meeting of the campus substance-abuse support group. I had been reading up on curriculums and methodologies, trying to figure out the best approach for facilitating the sessions. When I couldn’t deal with things on an emotional level, it was always easier for me to surround myself with hard facts.
    I knew that this would be hard for me, that it had the potential to trigger in me painful memories that perhaps were best left forgotten. But I was bound and determined to do it anyway. I was ultimately responsible for where my life was headed, and this was exactly what I wanted to do with it.
    I grimaced at Kristie’s question. “They’re sneaky little bastards,” I said, repositioning the chairs until I was happy with the layout. When I was finished, I joined Kristie at the table and got the muffins and cookies out of the grocery bag on the floor.
    Kristie held up her hand to show three fingers covered in Band-Aids. “They got me last week. Those chairs are merciless,” she joked. Kristie was in her late thirties and ran the outpatient program at the substance-abuse center in town. She had an unassuming air about her that was both relaxing and inviting. With frizzy black hair and green eyes behind dark-rimmed glasses, she was the epitome of the supportive counselor. I could easily see why people would be comfortable talking to her about their problems. Her demeanor lacked judgment, and her voice was soothing. I instantly liked her. Which was good, considering I would be co-facilitating this group with her for the next twelve weeks.
    “Let’s have a look at the curriculum materials for the group today. Like I said on the phone when we talked last week, I won’t expect you to do much today. Just observe, get to know the group members, get a feel for how these things work. Today serves more as an introduction than anything else. It’s a ‘get to know you’ for everyone. Be prepared for some very resistant individuals, though. Not everyone is here voluntarily, and there’s always one or twowho have to be an ass,” Kristie said, pulling her notebook out of her bag.
    I sat down beside her as she began to flip through the pages. “Really? I thought this was a group people came to because they wanted the help,” I