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someone. Figure it out. I would rather you not go through this again. Next time you may not be so lucky.” He says implying that he cares what happens to me.
    “ Don’t worry Dr. Reed, I won’t be making that mistake again. I can also see what I did was selfish. There are people who would be deeply affected by my actions. I might seek someone out when I am released.” I say to satisfy him.
    “Alright. I’ll check on you before I leave the hospital. I’m going to go order those tests. Your nurse should be in soon. She will bring you for them. Again just remember to go see a counselor, it could be a great benefit to you.”
    He smiles then politely excuses himself. Phew! I blow the air out of my lungs on a huff. In relief that so far there isn’t anything wrong, that they can tell yet. The nurse from earlier knocks on my door and enters.
    “Hey Hun, I’m going to be taking ya to get an MRI. Hopefully after the results come back affirmative that you’re healthy, we won’t have to put you through any more tests.”
    I look to Layla . I wanted to discuss what happened with her. She deserves to know why I did what I did. Why I wanted to end my life so badly. I just don’t want her to give up on me. After years of her trying to help me, trying push me out of my shell, I pay her back by showing her I don’t value my life at all. I need to make everything okay between her and I.
    “Layla, you’ll be here when I get back right?” I ask confirming that she’s not going to leave.
    I’m fearful that she only checked on me to make sure I was alive. Now that she knows I should be fine, she might leave.
    “Of course Nat. I’m not going anywhere girl. You would have to send over one thousand bees after me to leave your side.”
    How could I have doubted her? She’s always been there. Insecurity isn’t a valuable friend. It could break the fuck out of you, make you question every person that surrounds you. Whether they have the best in mind for you, but you will never believe it. Until it’s too late. When you believe that, that person is ready to take flight from your life, that’s when you finally find the truth inside of yourself.
    I seriously hate feeling insecur e.
    “Are ya ready Hun? Do you want me to make sure your gown is closed tight? It’s faster if we walk there and you’ve been in bed for four days, your legs need the movement. We don’t want to give anyone a show though.” My nurse says thoughtfully.
    “Please do. I don’t want anyone seeing what’s underneath.”
    I stand up with her help to allow her to tie the back of my gown up tight and secure. Once she’s satisfied that no one will see an inch of skin, she glides this tall pole next to me.
    “This is your IV stand, you see it has wheels so you can move it around with you. You’re going to need fluids for a little bit longer. It is much easier to slowly put solids back into your diet Hun. If we rushed, you would end up with an upset stomach. So wrap your hand around this pole. It can help you with walking. Use it for support, a cane if ya will.”
    I slowly grab onto the pole and let go of her shoulder , I didn’t realize I was clutching tightly.
    “I’ll see you in a few Lals.” I say , smiling over at her, showing her that I still have a small amount of hope left inside of me.
    “I’ll see ya in a few. I’ll have Liam save you some food, in case you feel up to eating when you get back , if your nurse there will allow it.”
    “Love you.”
    “Love ya too.” Layla says, her eyes watering.
    I know the reality of the situation I put us in is hitting her, roughly. I also know there isn’t anything I can do to change what I did. What’s done is done. But I am going to fix this, fix us. Our friendship is the only thing I have good in my life, beside Liam. Besides music.
    Maybe I am too dependent on that, on what we have. But it’s the only thing that has kept me going this far. And look where it got me. In a hospital room being