days every time she left Jacksons new home, she felt like she was a little more relaxed than the day before.
She got dressed and pulled her blonde hair up in a pony tail. She brushed her teeth and was out the door within thirty minutes of being up. She was looking forward to the lunch date with Jack. There was something about him that was intriguing to her and there felt like a sense of normalness when he and she were around each other. Though they had only really been around each other once, she felt like she had known him forever. Snapping back to reality Katie arrived at the cemetery in ten minutes.
She walked over to Jacksons’ grave and sat down. She brought her fingers to her lips and then touched his name. She did this every time she was there. It was the first and last thing she always did.
Katie got the feeling again that she was not alone. She got this feeling so often lately that it had started to feel normal. It was something that she could not shake and honestly didn’t know that she truly wanted to shake it.
“I miss you so much today. I have a date and could really use hearing you make those kissy sounds as I get ready,” Katie said. “I think you would like him. His name is Jack, and he went to school with me last year for the last few months. If mom and dad knew, they would probably freak out on me. It is just lunch so it isn’t like it is a big deal.”
She stopped and pulled at the grass on the ground. It didn’t look like anyone had mowed the lawn in at least two weeks. “The least they could do is to make sure they keep it neat and pretty here for you,” Katie said to Jackson. She rubbed the top of the headstone and noticed that it was dusty. This set Katie into a cleaning frenzy. She took her sweat shirt and wiped the top of the headstone until it was shiny in the sunlight. She grabbed the grass and made it all as short as she thought was appropriate. Then she took the flowers that mom always made sure that she bought for Jackson every month, and planted the container in the ground. Now whenever the flowers were there, they wouldn’t end up turned over in the wind. When she was done with that Katie felt like something was missing, but she just couldn’t pin point what it was. She looked at her watch and realized she needed to go, because she only had an hour before her lunch date. She couldn’t believe how much time had gone by so fast.
“Well I have to go now. Sorry I got into cleaning and we didn’t get to talk much, but it made me feel better to know that I could take care of you again. I love you Jackson, and I miss you more today than I did yesterday. The days are not the same without you,” Katie said as she touched her fingers to her lips and then touched Jackson’s name. As she stood up to leave she knew what was missing from his new home and she would make sure to bring it tomorrow when she came. Katie turned and walked away.
When she got home she went upstairs to the bathroom, and showered quickly. She carefully picked out a pair of her better jeans and a shirt that mom had gotten her yesterday. She paired it with a pair of flip flops and a belt. She put on some mascara, which she didn’t do very often at all but thought that this instance warranted its use. She knew it would only take her about ten minutes to get to the restaurant but she didn’t want to be late, so she left the house at twelve fifteen.
Katie figured she would be the first one there, and was surprised to find Jack was already there waiting for her. She walked into the restaurant and walked over to the table. She was so nervous that she felt her hands sweating. It was embarrassing to her. This was something new. She didn’t go to lunch with a guy, much less really talk to any guys. Katie was always the shy one, and really kept to herself when it came to guys.
“Hi, I thought I was going to be the first one here,” Katie said to Jack as she sat down.
“I didn’t want to be late,” Jack said