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    “Or maybe not—I like being the one with the hook-ups.” He grinned, and we headed off down the street towards Bart’s. “Sorry about that. In the bar. I swear—I like attention as much as the next guy, but it’s a little much, sometimes. Especially since I feel like a total fake—the band’s

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on the way, but we’re not exactly burning up the charts.”
    “Yet. I mean, being on your way is more than most people ever manage. And I’ve never heard you play, but Danny and the guys say you’re really good.”
He grinned. “Danny and the guys? Is that how you think of them?”
    “I don’t know—I guess. I mean—I work with Evan, and we’re friends. And Jeff’s a good guy. But—Danny’s the one I know best. If they all split up, Danny’s the one I’d still hang out with.”
    “Just hang out?” We were walking, facing the same direction, but I could tell he was keeping a pretty close eye on my reaction. “Nothing more? I mean, Dan’s gorgeous, and you guys are pretty close… how come you’re thinking about this now, with me? Not some other time, with him?”
    And that seemed like a bit of a challenge to my honesty policy, but I struggled to meet it. “I’ve thought about it. With him. Like—not details, but, yeah, I’ve—I don’t know. It’s occurred to me. But—he’s Danny.” How could I put that into words? “He’s—well, partly, he’s Justin’s, you know? I mean, I was never attracted to Justin. We were pretty much brothers. And then when Danny came along, he and Justin were so into each other, there’d have been no point. I guess I just got into the habit of not thinking about him that way.” This wasn’t coming out quite right. “And, also—you know, I’m—I don’t know, I guess maybe not quite straight, but—mostly. I think. I like women. A lot.”
    “So what are you doing, then, Chris?” He sounded genuinely curious, and a bit concerned. “One bad breakup doesn’t mean you have to totally switch orientations.”
    “No. It wasn’t—it wasn’t a bad breakup. It was a good breakup. Almost all of my breakups lately have been good.” I wasn’t sure if he was getting the point, here. “But I think maybe that’s bad. Like—there’s not enough passion for us to even have a real fight.” I glanced over at him, and he seemed like he was listening. “I don’t have a big life plan. You

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    know—marriage, kids, all that—if it happens, okay, but it’s not a big goal. But—I want to live with passion. I want to really feel…something. Anything.” The next part was a bit tricky, but I felt like I had to say it. “Justin—that was the lesson that I wanted to take from Justin’s life. You know, like as a memorial. He didn’t get to live as long as he should have.” I was pretty sure I could get through the next part without choking up, so I kept going. “But I’m still here. So I feel like I need to live enough for both of us, you know?”
    Ryan didn’t say anything for a while. We were almost to Bart’s when he said, “And you think this is what he would have wanted? You hooking up with a guy?”
    I shook my head emphatically. Ryan was sounding like Danny, all of a sudden. “Justin’s dead. I have no idea what he would have wanted, and I can’t spend my life trying to figure that out. I just—for me —I’m trying to learn a lesson. I can’t live his life, but I want to make sure that I really live mine.”
    Ryan stopped walking. It took me a couple steps to realize it, but when I turned around, he was standing there, waiting for me. “And you think this is the way to do that?”
“I have no idea. But—it doesn’t feel wrong. I mean, it feels right. Scary, but good.”
    “Yeah?” He took a step closer. There wasn’t much light, but I could see him clearly, his eyes on mine, waiting for me to bolt. Another step, and he lifted his hand up to my neck, just where it met my