fighting in the war. We were in the war, too, but we were children, we were like our grandmother and grandfather, we didnât have guns. The people my father was fightingâthe bandits, they are called by our governmentâran all over the place and we ran away from them like chickens chased by dogs. We didnât know where to go. Our mother went to the shop because someone said you could get some oil for cooking. We were happy because we hadnât tasted oil for a long time; perhaps she got the oil and someone knocked her down in the dark and took that oil from her. Perhaps she met the bandits. If you meet them, they will kill you. Twice they came to our village and we ran and hid in the bush and when theyâd gone we came back and found they had taken everything; but the third time they came back there was nothing to take, no oil, no food,so they burned the thatch and the roofs of our houses fell in. My mother found some pieces of tin and we put those up over part of the house. We were waiting there for her that night she never came back.
We were frightened to go out, even to do our business, because the bandits did come. Not into our houseâwithout a roof it must have looked as if there was no one in it, everything goneâbut all through the village. We heard people screaming and running. We were afraid even to run, without our mother to tell us where. I am the middle one, the girl, and my little brother clung against my stomach with his arms round my neck and his legs round my waist like a baby monkey to its mother. All night my first-born brother kept in his hand a broken piece of wood from one of our burnt house-poles. It was to save himself if the bandits found him.
We stayed there all day. Waiting for her. I donât know what day it was; there was no school, no church any more in our village, so you didnât know whether it was a Sunday or a Monday.
When the sun was going down, our grandmother and grandfather came. Someone from our village had told them we children were alone, our mother had not come back. I say âgrandmotherâ before âgrandfatherâ because itâs like that: our grandmother is big and strong, not yet old, and our grandfather is small, you donât know where he is, in his loose trousers, he smiles but he hasnât heard what youâre saying, and his hair looks as if heâs left it full of soap suds. Our grandmother took usâme, the baby, my first-born brother, our grandfatherâback to her house and we were all afraid (except the baby, asleep on our grandmotherâs back) of meeting the bandits on the way. We waited a longtime at our grandmotherâs place. Perhaps it was a month. We were hungry. Our mother never came. While we were waiting for her to fetch us our grandmother had no food for us, no food for our grandfather and herself. A woman with milk in her breasts gave us some for my little brother, although at our house he used to eat porridge, same as we did. Our grandmother took us to look for wild spinach but everyone else in her village did the same and there wasnât a leaf left.
Our grandfather, walking a little behind some young men, went to look for our mother but didnât find her. Our grandmother cried with other women and I sang the hymns with them. They brought a little foodâsome beansâbut after two days there was nothing again. Our grandfather used to have three sheep and a cow and a vegetable garden but the bandits had long ago taken the sheep and the cow, because they were hungry, too; and when planting time came our grandfather had no seed to plant.
So they decidedâour grandmother did; our grandfather made little noises and rocked from side to side, but she took no noticeâwe would go away. We children were pleased. We wanted to go away from where our mother wasnât and where we were hungry. We wanted to go where there were no bandits and there was food. We were glad to think