to let him tag along.â
âThere were thirteen of us,â Al said.
Dominic capped the spent syringe and dropped it back into the bag, then he scrawled out a series of prescriptions. âThese are for pain, and heâs going to need them. Whatever he needs, Iâll be here.â
âAnd Iâll be here, too,â Al said.
âIf he decides to opt for faith healing over Demerol,â his brother said. âBut I think he should stick with the drugs. This man you are in love with has a very bad back.â I thought I detected a certain amount of pity in his voice, like I had been the unwitting recipient of damaged goods that I was now stuck with.
Al and Dominic offered to show themselves out, and I stood by the bed, watching the man I loved melt into a deep puddle of drug-induced sleep. Kink by kink, he let go of his waking life and spread across the sheets. I could tell just by looking at him that he wasnât going to be coming around anytime soon.
I sat down very carefully on the bed beside him and held his hand. For that minute I could see him as a boy of six or seven, worn out and hard asleep after a day of summer baseball. I could see him as a father at thirty, up all night with croupy babies and completely exhausted, or a businessman of fifty, falling asleep on his flower-arranging table after a giant wedding.
My dear Romeo. So he had a bad back he hadnât mentioned before. Believe me, there were things going wrong with my own machinery that I hadnât been so quick to share. Well, I wouldnât let him carry the boxes of flowers in from the truck anymore. Everything would be fine.
There was a light tap on the door, and Sandy stuck her head inside, her curls conveying a sense of franticness. âIs he okay? Al said his back was a mess.â
âHeâll be fine,â I said, resting assured in my own sudden sense of peace.
Sandy slipped inside the door, our clothes neatly folded in her arms, the shoes balanced on top. âI brought you these.â She put them on top of the dresser.
âThank you. Iâm sorry I didnât get things picked up.â
âI was going to give you a hard time, you know, before I realized that Romeo was hurt.â She sat down on the little straight-backed chair beside my desk and looked at the two of us. âThe truth is, I wish Tony and I could be alone in the house every now and then. Privacy is hard to come by around here.â
âMaybe we should have a sign-up sheet.â Sandy and I really were in the same boat. She was married to the son and I was in love with the father and with all of us in the house together with two kids, it was just about impossible to find five minutes alone.
From downstairs I heard Little Tony wail, then I heard the Candyman start to sing again. Sandy sighed and shook her head. âThere she goes.â
âSheâs going to do us all in,â I said. âYou know that.â
âMom!â Tony cried from outside the door.
Sandy sighed again and pushed up out of her chair heavily, like a foreman going to deliver a guilty verdict. She opened the door halfway and touched her sonâs head gently. âI know.â
âI canât stand it!â
âListen, go in your room and put your Walkman on. Itâs all you can do. I need to spend some time with Grandma right now.â
Tony peered around his mother to where I sat on the bed with my sleeping Romeo. âIs he okay?â
Tony was a sweet boy, maybe too sensitive for his own good, but genuinely loving and concerned for others.
âSure heâs okay,â I said. âHe just needs to get some sleep. Go tell Sarah to turn the volume down. Tell her that Romeo is trying to rest.â
Tony smiled hugely. So rarely did we give him the opportunity to exercise any real authority over his little sister. As he ran down the stairs, he screamed out her name.
âSarah! Grandma saidââ
Sandy