around Iâm assailed by summer fragrances, summer flowers, scents of roses, hollyhock nodding ⦠so peaceful, a bower of utter tranquillity ⦠Iâve started a poem:
SUMMERS EVENING ⦠(A FRAGMENT)
Oh, little house on DeLacey Street,
Safe hid midst deep suburbia.
Gay borders, flowery-tubs doth compete
With porch â a garland of wisteria.
Nah, maybe not â what a pisser! (Iâve kicked it into touch). This is the trouble, my minds all over the place. There again you can hardly be expected to be churning-out tip-top quality poetry in the middle of a domestic upheaval. Cynthiaâs just been in â you could tell she was in one of her moods. She poked her head round the door, she was brandishing the frying-pan Iâd used the day before (I mustâve caught it a bit). âStupid sod!â she yelled at the top of her voice. Big deal, an accident. Too late, I tried to think of some smart comment. Next thing sheâd chucked it clean through the window out into the garden (luckily it was open). âOh, grow upâ I said â âwell, what else do you expect. Some wives cook for their husbands.â
Just as I thought sheâd no answer for that one â she flounced out slamming the door behind her.
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2:30am. Look at the time, Cynâs just got in, I could hear her, thumping her way up to bed, waking the whole house. Thereâs me wide awake, tossing about on a rickety camp-bed all night â dawn about to leap over the window-sill ⦠No doubt sheâll be straight off to sleep the minute her head hits the pillow.
3:15am. Just thinking. Cyn Iâm meaning. I was just wondering thatâs all, all alone in that double bed upstairs ⦠would she have need of me? There again, maybe not (she thinks I donât know) all that sexual machinery she keeps stashed away in her bedside drawer, sex aids Iâm meaning. Nah, no chance â why risk it.
Wednesday 22nd July.
W.H. Davis 1871-1940.
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What is this life if full of care ,
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we have no time to stand and stare .
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(Lost Leg?)
DeLacey Street.
(Post-one).
8:00pm. (CONSERVATORY). HOT DAY (nice and sunny for a change). Another long (v.long) dull day at work â (no, I mean really dull). Thatâs libraries I expect â books in, books out â same boring routine day after day. This is the trouble nothing ever happens. What if say, old Docket was suddenly discovered having oral-sex with Ms. Walker his flat-chested P.A. behind the Social Services section? Or, maybe Kirsty and Shiraleen, caught inside the lift in a passionate embrace?
There again all this scorching hot weather weâre having, that doesnât help â not when youâre stuck indoorsall day. My mother phoned me this morning (this is at work Iâm meaning) the times Iâve told her about that. How many more times â itâs only for dire emergencies I reminded her.
There was a pause. âThis is a dire emergencyâ she assured me.
Sheâs in desperate need of some fresh yeast. It turns out itâs the Annual Sisterhood Tea, round at the Salvation Army hut. Theyâve sprung it on her at short notice. Fair enough. Mind you Iâm always a bit wary. I could do with my mother, somehow or other thereâs always some strings attached. Next thing, then sheâs telling me it must come from Ivy Crowâs stall, right at the far end of the Market-hall. âOh, and a bottle of malt vinegarâ (I was right). âThatâs if itâs no trouble, itâs next to Trotters tripe stall. Tell her your Adaâs lad, sheâll know who you are thenâ she added.
Pretty soon I had a list as long as your arm.
There was a long pause. I was hoping sheâd finished (old Docketâs just about due on his morning rounds). Suddenly she said âWeâre all in for an Indian-summer by all accounts â it was on the six oâclock news this morning.â
Ernle Dusgate Selby Bradford