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finally able to close my eyes and drift off to sleep.
     
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    Chapter Three
     
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    I was able to get a good four hours of sleep in before I was startled awake by a gut wrenching nightmare. I keep reliving the moment I pulled the trigger over and over again. Though in my dream, every time I shoot Jacob in the head, he sits back up and just stares at me with an icy cold gaze. Freezing me where I sit, unable to move, I scream with fear so loud my throat burns and then I awaken every time.
     
    If I manage to fall back to sleep after that dream, I keep having dreams about Zak; each time they are the same, but different. It’s hard to explain or even comprehend. He’s chasing me through the woods and no matter how fast I run, I just can’t get a safe distance away from him. A cottage appears and I think I’ve found a safe place. After I get to it I try and try to push the door shut and turn the lock. Zak is too fast, he’s at the door moments after I run in. He’s pushing the door open; I keep fighting against him trying to push it shut…but it won’t lock. Feeling defeated, I fall to the ground in a ball screaming for Kayden, but he never comes. I awaken every time just before Zak shoots me.
     
    It’s terrifying, and every time I wake up from one of my nightmares, I feel disoriented, like I can’t tell if what I dreamt was real or not. They seem real, and I awaken terrified for my life.
     
    Sitting up faster than I should have, I scream out in pain. Jolting up like that is not the smartest thing to do when your entire body aches. I am drenched in sweat; my satin nightgown is sticking to my torso. Panic rips through me when I realize Kayden isn’t in bed beside me.
     
    Slowly slipping off of the bed, I make my way to the bathroom. Using a warm damp wash cloth, I wipe my face. Stripping out of my babydoll, I toss it in the wicker hamper by the bathroom door. I rummage through the drawers finding a hair tie. I gently tie my hair back in a loose bun, taking extra care not to pull where my incision is still healing.
     
    Walking into Kayden’s closet, I find the spot he cleared for my clothing. I slowly slide on a pair of black Victoria Secret yoga pants and a hot pink tank top. Feeling better now that I’ve had time to come out of the fog I was stuck in from my nightmare, I make my way downstairs to try and find Kayden.
     
    The house is quiet and illuminated only by a few dim lights on throughout the house. I can hear the light hum of a television and spot Alec and Jerome, the new security guards, in the small sitting area off of the kitchen. Jerome is sleeping sprawled out on one of the small sofas, while Alec is watching TV and security monitors. It’s almost three a.m. They take turns every few hours monitoring the grounds.  During the day, Jax monitors the house while they sleep in the morning.
     
    I feel safe between them three and Kayden. I am happy he suggested we come and stay here until Zak is caught, rather than back at one of our beach houses. I decide to say hello, the last thing I want is to catch an ex navy seal off guard.
     
    “Hey Alec, have you seen Kayden?” I ask leaning gingerly against the archway.
     
    Turning and flashing me a smile, I can’t help but smile back at him. Alec looks to be in his mid-fifties but has a body like a thirty year old. I imagine it's from maintaining a healthy life style. He is slender but muscular, standing around six feet tall. He has dark brown eyes that sit close together. His sharp nose and small thin mouth, paired with his silver buzz cut makes him appear standoffish. Definitely not someone you would approach willingly, but once he talks to you that all changes. He's charming and grew up in New Jersey; you can tell as soon as he opens his mouth.
     
    “Hello, Miss Livingston. Mr. Knox is in his sports room, I believe. I can check the monitors to be sure?”
     
    Giving him a small smile, I tell him no need and make my way towards Kayden’s