of their love.
Others thought it was an earthquake
or a mishap in the galleyâ
a runaway trolley, a stack of fallen dishes.
The baker wasnât sure what happened
though he hoped his loaves would not fall.
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While airtight after airtight compartment filled,
a second-class passenger ordered his drink
with chunks from the berg.
A small child sucked pieces of ice
as if they were candies,
and her brothers scraped up snowballs,
their mother worried only
they could lose an eye.
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THE PROGNOSIS
After Thomas Andrews returned to the bridge
from examining the damage below,
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he realized how a doctor must feel
when delivering a negative prognosis.
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While Captain Smith expected the ailment
to only be minor, a strain or sprain,
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Andrews worked hard for the words
to explain their condition,
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how they should all find ways
to get their personal affairs in order.
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THE BARBER
Up until now, his only worries were
rough seas and dull scissors,
but with each launched lifeboat he gained
perspective and a newfound clarityâ
the piles of hair, the polite conversations
where heâd nod yes even when he meant no,
a lifeâs worth of postcard sales, miniature lifesavers,
and the pennants that hung from the ceiling.
He considered how early barbers worked
as dentists and bloodlettersâ
the spinning pole outside his shop
symbolizing blue blood to the heart,
red blood to the body.
Most customers thought it was a giant candy
like the peppermints
he gave to young boys on their first cut.
He wondered whether he should apologize
for all the missing hairs
for he knew the men would need them,
every last one.
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THE BOY IN LIFEBOAT NO. 14
Although the boy had yet to hear
his own voice change or find himself
needing to shave a scruffy face,
Second Officer Lightoller still threatened
to blow the boyâs brains out
unless he left the lifeboat
and returned to the sinking ship.
The women pleaded he was only a boy,
that there was room enough
for all of them, but as the lifeboat rocked
like a giant cradle in the wind,
Lightoller maintained a strict adherence
to women and children first .
One little girl wondered if jumping
from boat to boat was a game
only boys could play and, if so,
why did he seem upset?
As the older men stood back
with cigars, enjoyed the last
few swigs from favourite flasks,
the boy sat inside a coil of rope,
heavy with the feeling
heâd become a man.
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THE WISHING WELL
As her lifeboat lowered,
one woman recalled
a childhood game
where she squeezed
both feet
into the bucket
from a wishing well,
and held on tight
as her brothers
lowered her
down
to the bottom.
She never opened
her eyes,
could only tell
she made it
by the splash
and the lapping sounds
that reminded her
of hunting dogs drinking
from a birdbath
or pond.
As her brothers
pulled her
back up
sheâd think
of new excuses
to tell her mother,
yet another puddle,
a spilled glass
of water,
a leaky vase
full of flowers.
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EDITH EVANS
A fortune teller once told Edith Evans,
beware of the water . For years she walked
with her head down, convinced that if she didnât
sheâd someday step into a puddle,
ruin a new pair of shoes.
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When the last lifeboat left without her,
the deck all of a sudden filled with men,
she reached down to her ankles, undid the laces,
threw her shoes into the darknessâand waited,
waited for the splash.
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THE PIANO PLAYER
Unlike his musician compatriots
whose instruments could be carried on deck
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the shipâs piano player could only watch
as his band mates played on.
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At first he just swayed to the music
then tapped his feet and hummed
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but he couldnât withstand
the ache to play along
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even without a sound
his hands slipping from gloves,
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his cold fingers
tickling the air, ghost-style.
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EPIPHANY
All those years, heâd never harmed
Jessica Conant-Park, Susan Conant