Momma.â
âAnd donât you forget it.â I lift my head and stroll up to my front door, knowing full well that Arzellâs big, young chocolate eyes are following each sway of my hips. As I suspect, the front door is unlocked and when I step into my house, the place is pitch black.
âHumph,â I say, playing along. âI wonder why itâs so dark in here.â I flip the switch by the door. Niggas jump out of the woodwork like cockroaches.
âSurprise!â
I light up while tears burn the back of my eyes. âNow this is what Iâm talking about. Somebody pass me a blunt and letâs get this muthafuckinâ party started!â
4
Yolanda
T he music from Momma Peachesâs welcome-home party is bumping so hard all the walls up and down Shotgun Row are jumping and trembling. But nobody says shit because everybody loves Peachesâme included. As far as Iâm concerned, Peaches is like a second momma, only better. She has always tried to look out for me, despite the fact that Iâm a little hardheaded. Still, I have nothing but love for the feisty old lady.
Back in the day, she saved me from my drunk, no good daddy (though I found out years later that he really wasnât my daddy) when he came at me with a broken beer bottle. Peaches had stepped in, bold as you please, asking him what the hell he thought he was going to do with that bottle. Daddy charged toward Peaches. However, Peaches had something for his ass. Instead of slicing her up, he got sliced. Hell, she was so fast, nobody even saw when sheâd reached for her blade. It was just swish-swish-swishâlike some old Zorro shit, and the nigga went down, grabbing his face and hollering like a bitch.
My momma, Betty, was pissed about that shit, and to this day blames Peaches for chasing her man off.
âShit. Betty should be gratefulâI did her ass a favor,â Peaches would always say whenever Bettyâs venom dripped into her ears.
I agree.
I donât even remember how old I was when the shit went down. My daddy had already banged me up pretty bad because he claimed Iâd back talked him. Maybe I did, maybe I didnâtâI donât remember. However, I do remember laughing my ass off when Peaches lopped the niggaâs ear off.
Peaches looked at me like I was crazy. But the shit was just funny. After that, people up and down Shotgun Row started saying that my elevator didnât quite reach the top. Teachers told Betty on the regular that I was slow and needed to be on Ritalin. Keeping it real, the shit was just a legal high and turned me into a zombie.
Teachers and the neighborhood kids still called me slow no matter how hard I tried to be like them. There was nothing I wouldnât do to be popular. I used to let people borrow what few good clothes and toys my momma scraped up only for them not to return them or fuck them up before giving them back. In junior high, a few of the kids were curious about my Ritalin, so I let them try it. I got into some major shit for that. Soon after, a boy I liked, Jimmy Gaines, gave me a box of Lemonheads to let him put his dick in my mouth. I did itâand then the next day another boy asked, and then another.
I finally became popularâat least with the boys. They even gave me the nickname Lemonhead.
I didnât care. Boys loved me, especially when my body started to resemble a Coke bottle, and I proved that I was a certified freak when it came to sexing the 6 poppinâ crew. School turned out not to be my thing; books always hurt my head. So I dropped out in the ninth grade and started hustling. When my momma couldnât afford my medication, I turned to the street shit and found it all made me feel about the same.
But now Iâm tired of just being a mule, hauling shit everywhere and spreading my legs for every foot solider in Pythonâs crew and getting next to nothing for my troubles. I might not be book smart, but