course.â
There was a moment of silence. Then Eric spoke again. âAre you happy, Bec?â
âI am.â Except for lying and deceiving and being attracted to a man without any potential for a future relationship. âDonât be too hard on Gavin, okay? Eloping was my idea.â
âHe went along with it.â
She heard condemnation in his voice. âHeâd do anything for me, Eric. Isnât that what youâve always wanted?â
He sighed. âOf course it is.â
âThen just be happy for me.â
She hung up the phone a minute later feeling lowerthan low. What a sincerely stupid thing sheâd done, even if for what she thought were the right reasons.
After a minute of remorse, she sat up tall in her chair. She would get through the weekend and the lie somehow, because it mattered. Sheâd made her decision for good reasons, solid reasons. She couldnât backpedal.
Exceptâ¦now she had another tricky situation to deal with. She drummed her fingers on her desk, debating, and then finally called Gavinâs cell phone.
âWe have a new complication,â she said.
âThe first of many, I imagine,â he said drily. âWhatâs up?â
âI just talked to Eric. Heâs looking forward to seeing pictures of our wedding.â
There was a long moment of pause. âOkay. You find the right dress to wear. Iâll take care of everything else. Iâll pick you up around noon on Sunday.â
For a woman used to making decisions herself, she gave in easily to his taking charge. âThank you, Gavin. Thank you so much.â
âItâs something any good husband would do.â
She heard the smile in his voice. âWhat about your weekend plans?â
âI can be done by then. See you on Sunday.â
âGavin,â she said in a hurry before he hung upâ and before she lost her nerve.
âWhat?â
âIf your plans include getting a haircut, please donât.â She wanted to run her fingers through it,had been hoping for a chance while they were âmarried.â
She could almost hear him frown.
âI should look my best for our wedding photos,â he said. âThey last a lifetime, you know.â
âI think it adds to your philanthropic, selfless-doctor look,â she said.
He laughed, soft and low, a sound that registered in her as if their bodies had been touching. She liked him too much. Way too much.
âI guess I can make that sacrifice for my wife.â
âThank you,â she said, the phrase becoming all too common. âIf thereâs something you think of that I can do, youâll let me know, right?â
âLook like a bride. Iâll handle the rest. And relax, okay? Itâll be fine.â
âGiving up control is hard for me,â she admitted.
âNo kidding. Let go of the wheel, Becca. Controlâs an illusion, anyway, so you might as well just have fun.â
Was that his philosophy? Was that why he was happy working temp jobs, not having a particular career? She wished she could be more like him. Well, a little more like him. She couldnât give up the career sheâd worked so hard for.
âYou win,â she said. âPlease keep track of your expenses.â
âSee you later.â Then he hung up, without waiting for her to even say goodbye.
Becca looked around her office. If she had a window, she wouldâve taken advantage of it to stare outside while she considered their conversation.
Look like a bride, heâd said. She took a mental tour of her closet, but nothing appropriate came to mind. She needed to shop. Normally she would ask Suki to go with her, but she didnât want to involve anyone else, if possible. As it was, Eric would wonder why Suki hadnât attended her best friendâs wedding.
A wedding without a honeymoon.
Somehow that didnât seem quite fair.
She laughed, let herself relax
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