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don’t believe every guy out there is a cheating pig like Will. It’s just that I was so sure I’d found forever with Will that it never once crossed my mind that I shouldn’t trust him, and when I found out what he was doing, I lost that ability to trust. And not just other people, but myself, too.”
    Ellie reached across the table and wrapped her hands around Maya’s. “And we hate that he did that to you.”
    “I know. The thing is, though, Jayne can set me up on dates from now until the second coming, and it won’t matter. They’re all going to end the same way, because I’ll always be wondering if that guy is trustworthy, or if I’m just paranoid, and that’s not fair to any guy. I mean, honestly, if I think about it, there are four guys I know who I would trust implicitly and every single one of them is off-limits.”
    “Who?” Jayne asked. “Is Nick one of them?”
    “Of course. And Carter and Brett, too.” She hesitated a second, then nodded. “And Jack. He might be loyal to Dickhead, and he might have avoided me for the last couple of years, but he’d never hurt anyone like that. Will used to tease him for being soft, but I never thought it was him being soft. I mean, given what he went through as a kid, I always thought it was more that he knew what it was like to be hurt or forgotten, and he never wanted to be the one to make anyone else ever feel that way.”
    The three of them sat in silence, watching Maya sip her wine and waiting for her to continue.
    “Anyway, in between the two times Griffin and I actually hung out together, there were
a lot
of phone calls that went on for a while, like some of them went on for hours.”
    “Holy crap,” Regan murmured.
    “By the time he came over the second time, we both knew there wasn’t going to be a big romance between us, but we really enjoy each other’s company, and I think that’s the main reason he asked me.” She chewed her lip for a second then shrugged. “He knows he’d never make a good husband, he told me that himself, but he really wants to be a dad—you should hear him talk about his nieces and nephews, it’s adorable. Anyway, with no romantic attachment between us, it sort of makes sense.”
    “It does?” Jayne asked. “How?”
    “Given the way I am now, I can’t see myself ever getting married again, and until Griffin showed up, I had written off any chance I had of having children, too. But why should I? It’s the twenty-first century, single women have children all the time, for various reasons, and they do it alone. But I wouldn’t be alone; I’d have him to share everything with.”
    “And how will you share everything with you living here and him living in L.A.?”
    “I don’t know,” Maya admitted. “I haven’t figured that out yet. I haven’t even agreed to this yet, I just wanted to hash it out with you guys so you could help me with the figuring-it-out part.”
    Regan and Jayne both spoke at the same time.
    “Do it.”
    “Don’t do it.”
    Ellie just sighed and shook her head. “I don’t know, Maya. I just don’t know. This is huge.”
    “I know.”
    “This isn’t what you want,” Jayne said, her voice gentle but firm. “You’ve always wanted the whole thing—the husband, the home, the kids—and I think it’s wrong for you to settle for anything less than that.”
    Regan watched Jayne as she spoke; then she turned to Maya and looked at her with something Maya could only describe as fierceness.
    “You’ve always wanted to have kids, Maya, and if you’re both in complete agreement about what’s what, you should do it. Don’t let the chance pass you by, especially since these other two don’t seem to be in any hurry to make me an aunt.”
    It wasn’t often Regan said anything about the fact that she and Carter couldn’t have kids of their own, so Maya reached for Regan’s hand and gave it a tight squeeze.
    “I don’t know,” Ellie kept saying. “It’s just…wow.”
    “Yeah.