while we were in Alabama. I guess you don’t remember any of that though since you can’t seem to remember anything from right before you got your new job according to Dexter.” At the mention of his name I peer over at the door again hoping he will walk through.
“Yea, I can’t remember anything at all just bits and pieces here and there of odd things. No memories of this Dexter guy at all. Is it true? Am I really in love with an actor?”
“You’re not just in love with him Courtney. He means everything to you. This love runs deeper than any high school love thing you had going on with Dave. Can’t believe he is alive by the way. But this thing with Dexter is ten times more than anything you ever had with him. I have told you as much already before. Hopefully you can figure that out on your own. I hope that even though Dave is back you won’t end up shattering Dexter’s heart. He has been so good to you. He treats you the way you deserve to be treated. I really like him.” My sister is always giving it to me straight. That’s one of the things I love about her.
How am I supposed to just set Dave to the side though knowing what he did for us? We have kids together and we used to have a great life together. I don’t even remember Dexter. It feels only right that I should be with Dave. After all I am actually still married to the guy because he isn’t even really dead. At least I assume we are. I have no clue how all that legal crap works. I will have to ask Dave whenever he decides to show back up again.
I glance at the door again. Oddly enough not looking for Dave, but for Dexter.
“Why do you keep glancing at the door? Who are you wishing will walk through it?” Lillian lifts a curious eyebrow.
“Am I that obvious?” I laugh out. “Honestly I am looking for Dexter. He was here last night. I thought he would be here when I woke up.”
“Well, I wouldn’t be expecting Dexter walking through the door anytime soon. Rob and Dexter left early this morning to head back to Alabama. I think Dexter may have left you a letter right over there.” She flicks her finger towards a folded up piece of paper on the bedside table.
That must have been what Rob needed to talk to Dexter about last night.
Lillian walks over and grabs the letter. I snuggle up to my beautiful niece Lillian Faith and take in her sweet baby smell. I give her a little kiss on her head and hand her back to her momma and I take the note from Lillian.
“Thanks for this Lillian. Also thanks for bringing little Lillian Faith down to see me too. I can’t believe I missed her being born. So Dexter told me Rob filled in for me. I really hope I get my memory back soon. It seems like a lot has happened recently.” All of this confusion is starting to give me a headache. I rub my temples where the tension is building up.
“Rob and Dexter have been great. They were supposed to go back to Alabama to finish filming this season of By the Light of the Moon weeks ago. After the tornado they both decided they weren’t leaving our sides until they absolutely had no choice. I guess that time came because they both had to leave early this morning. I think their agents and producers were starting to get pretty pissed because they kept putting off having to leave.”
After Lillian tells me that I ask for some alone time so I can read my letter Dexter left me. I need some time alone with my thoughts. I take the letter and unfold it and what I read brings tears to my eyes.
My Dearest Courtney,
I hate that I am having to leave you like this without explaining everything in person. I tried to wake you but you were sound asleep and wouldn’t have it. I wanted to let you know first off that I did not want to leave you right now. Not while you are in the hospital when you need me the most. Duty calls though. I haven’t been back on set in weeks and Rob and I have missed a few appearances while we have been here. So we really didn’t have a choice
Jessica Conant-Park, Susan Conant