Iâll win that back in just a few hours, the way the pots have been running.â
âYou broke your string, son,â Riker said softly, looking out over the water. âYou been losinâ âcause you was ashamed of yourself for what you done to that heavyset boy.â
âI still think he had it coming to him,â I insisted.
âI ainât arguinâ that,â Riker said. âLike as not he did. What Iâm sayinâ, son, is that youâre ashamed of yourself for beinâ the one that come down on him like you done. I been watchinâ you, and you ainât set easy since that hand. Funny thing about luckâit wonât never come to a man who donât think heâs got it cominâ. Do yourself a favor and stay out of the game. Youâre only gonna lose from here on out.â
I was going to argue with him, but I had the sudden cold certainty that he was right. I looked out at the dark ocean. âI guess maybe the bit about the pants was going a little too far,â I admitted.
âYeah,â he said, âyour buddyâs watch woulda been plenty.â
âMaybe I will stay out of the game,â I said. âIâm about all pokered out anyway.â
âYeah,â he said, âweâll be gettinâ home pretty quick anyway.â
âCouple, three days, I guess.â
âWell,â he said, âIâm gonna turn in. Been nice talkinâ to you, son.â He turned and walked off down the deck.
âGood night, Sergeant Riker,â I called after him.
He waved his hand without looking back.
So I quit playing poker. I guess Iâve always been a sucker for fatherly advice. Somehow I knew that Riker was right though. Whatever the reason, Iâd lost the feeling Iâd had that the cards were going to fall my way no matter what anybody tried to do to stop them. If Iâd have gone back the next day, theyâd have cleaned me out. So the next day I watched the ocean, or read, and I didnât think about poker.
Two days later we slid into New York Harbor. It was early morning and foggy. We passed the Statue and then stacked up out in the bay, waiting for a tug to drag us the rest of the way in. We all stood out on deck watching the sun stumble up outof the thick banks of smoke to blearily light up the buildings on Manhattan Island.
Itâs a funny feeling, coming home when you donât really have anything to come home to. I leaned back against a bulkhead, watching all the other guys leaning over the rail. I think I hated every last one of them right then.
Two grubby tugboats finally came and nudged us across the bay to a pier over in Brooklyn. Early as it was, there must have been a thousand people waiting. There was a lot of waving and shouting back and forth, and then they all settled down to wait. The Armyâs good at that kind of thing.
Benson dragged his duffle bag up to where I was and plunked it down on the deck. I still hadnât told him I had his watch. I didnât want him selling it again so he could get back in the game.
âHey, Alders,â he puffed, âI been lookinâ for you all over this fuckinâ tub.â
âIâve been right here, kid.â
âFeels good, gettinâ home, huh?â he said.
âItâs still a long way to Seattle,â I told him. His enthusiasm irritated hell out of me.
âYou know what I mean.â
âSure.â
âYou think maybe they might fly us out to the West Coast?â
âI doubt it,â I said. âI expect a nice long train ride.â
âShit!â He sounded disgusted. âYouâre probably right though. The way my luckâs been goinâ lately, theyâll probably make me walk.â
âYouâre just feeling picked on.â
Eventually, they started unloading us. Those of us bound for West-Coast and Midwest separation centers were loaded on buses and then we
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