really want?â
Shaking his head, Clayton sighed. âIs it really over between us?â
âOnly if you want it to be.â
It took a few moments for Archerâs words to sink in. When they did, a glimmer of hope unfurled somewhere deep inside Clayton. It had been like this between them for monthsâeverything fragile, tentative. As if any abrupt moment or movement on either of their parts would shatter their relationship, more than a decade long, into a million pieces.
Clayton held out his hand. He hesitated for a beat, then Archer took it in hisâthe apology given and accepted.
âWhat were you saying about Ana Mae?â
âShe left money. A lot of it, according to JoJo.â
âWhereâd it come from?â
âThe lottery.â
Archerâs brow crinkled at that. âThe lottery? The gambling lottery? Holy woman Ana Mae won money from playing the numbers? That doesnât sound right.â
âI was thinking along pretty much the same line. Maybe JoJoâs had a few drinks or took a pill to calm her nerves.â
âAre they here at the inn?â
Clayton shook his head. âLester and JoJo are staying at the house.â
Archer made a face.
âMy thoughts exactly,â Clayton said. âI donât know why, though. If memory serves correctly, JoJo is allergic to cats. I wonder where she put them.â
âShe must be doped up on Benadryl or something to be able to stay there,â Archer observed as they settled together on the sofa.
âProbably. None of us were particularly close, but if I had to guess, Iâd say JoJo kept in touch with Ana Mae more than either Delcine or I did.â Then Clayton said, âHmm, though now that I think about it, it may have been Delcine who was allergic. We didnât have pets growing up, but Ana Mae was always feeding some stray.â
âIs that right?â
Clay nodded and told Archer about one of the strays Ana Mae had been hiding in the house until Delcine or JoJo spent twenty-four hours sneezing and their mother found the kitten.
Archer waved away as inconsequential the topic of the cats and allergies. They werenât staying at the house on Clairmont Road, and that was all that really mattered.
For the next few minutes, the two men chatted companionably. Like surface friends, not at all like the confidants they used to be.
Talking about cats and Ana Mae back in the day meant they did not have to talk about the rift in their relationship, a divide that sprang up from nowhere a few months ago. Clayton, while a prominent, successful, and sought-after physician in his professional life, remained insecure in his personal life. Deep down, he was still the picked-on gay kid from small-town North Carolina, and all this trip did was reinforce that thinkingâa character flaw he thought he had shed years ago.
As a matter of fact, if Ana Mae hadnât died, necessitating this trip across country, Clayton couldnât at all be sure that Archer wouldnât have moved out of their Pacific Heights home.
But gathering his courage, Clayton broached the topic that had been on his mind since heâd gotten the call that Ana Mae was gone.
âThank you for coming out here with me.â
Archer took his hand. âI know how much you hated this place. I didnât want you to be alone. Not at a time like this.â
A tremulous smile curved Claytonâs mouth. Maybe things between them werenât as bad as heâd imagined. Maybe they would sleep together tonight after all.
But before Clayton could nestle into the comfy crook of his loverâs broad shoulder, Archer moved away. Clayton bit back a sigh.
âDo you think Ana Mae knew that her preacher is queer?â
That brought Clayton up short. He almost choked. âWhat?â
âThat reverend. Le Baptiste. Heâs as queer as you and I.â
Clayton shook his head. Getting up, he went to the bar and poured