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    Subject:  Hello
     
    Jennifer,
    I realize I’m the last person you ever expected to hear from, and I hope you will at least read what I have to say before you delete this message. I also want you to know I’m not trying to cause any trouble or make you feel threatened in any way. The last thing I want to do is upset you and your family.
    I’d like to start out by saying thank you for reading this far into my message. I honestly didn’t know if you’d open the email or just delete it. Second, I know many things have happened in both of our lives over the years, and I want you to know I’m deeply sorry for all the trouble I put you through. There are no words I can say to take away the pain and grief I caused you back then, but I honestly hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me. You are a good woman and I was wrong.
    For many years I have wanted to contact you to beg for your forgiveness, but I could never get enough courage to do so. I’ve even attended some therapy sessions just to try and help me cope with everything. I had hoped, over time, it would get easier to deal with the pain, but it hasn’t. Thankfully, my wife has been very understanding and supportive. If it wasn’t for her, I’m not sure I would still be here today.
    When you left me all those years ago, I made some pretty bad choices. I was hurt and angry and didn’t know how to deal with your leaving.  You were the only positive thing I had going, and I screwed that up. I couldn’t accept that you didn’t want to be with me anymore. Rather than causing more turmoil, I should’ve been doing more to support you and our unborn child instead of being a deadbeat.
    I spent a couple of months in jail and realized there was so much more to life. I was a disappointment as well as a disgrace to my family, but I was the only one that could change that. I ended up back home with my parents and thank goodness they were willing to give me one final chance to turn my life around.
    At first I had a very hard time finding a job but eventually found one working at a construction site close to the beach. It was difficult working out in the sun all day long, but I managed to stick it out. I made decent money and was able to put a good bit into savings. Yes, you read that right. I started saving up my money and it felt good. I felt proud for once in my life. At the end of summer when the job was completed, my supervisor offered me the opportunity to travel with his company to another site. I was hesitant at first but decided to take him up on his offer. If nothing else, my parents were able to see I was dedicated to the job.
    Eventually the work started dwindling down and I made the decision to move back home again. I had a decent amount of money saved up so I enrolled in a couple classes at the university. I had no idea what I wanted to do with myself, but figured after taking some core classes I might find something to interest me. For the most part, I made pretty decent grades and stayed out of trouble. You would be amazed at the person I had become. I also met someone that was patient and willing to help me with a lot of the personal frustrations I was experiencing. You see, after all that time, I still felt bad for the way our relationship had ended and knowing I had fathered a child that I knew nothing about.
    I decided to try my hand at teaching and graduated with a degree in education a few years ago. Yes, I am now a P.E. teacher and coach at the middle school I attended when I was younger. Would you believe I love it! I continued to see Grace, the girl I met when I first started taking classes, and we eventually got married. Grace has been such a positive influence for me. She is also a teacher but has taken the year off to stay at home and raise our son, Brady. I was very honest with Grace and told her all about you and the baby. It wasn’t easy for her knowing I already had a child, but together, we got through it. The