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Jennifer's name. Jack had to work it out for himself. 'And they're trying to get at me – '
    Jack laughed mercilessly. 'It's always about you, isn't it?'
    'Jack it's not like that – '
    'I'm not going to be lieve a word you say,' he said, coldly cutting me off.
    Jack put his hood back on and left me standing in front of the library. I don't know how I long I stood there, letting the rain soak me fully, as if it could wash away my sins. I finally forced my legs to move. My teeth chattered as I went up to our dorm room. I let myself in with a key.
    Rene jumped from the couch when she saw me. 'You must be freezing,' she said.
    I changed out of my wet clothes and into clean, dry clothes. Rene wrapped a blanket around me and made something hot to drink. I held the cup of cocoa in my hands and blew over the top.
    Rene sipped from her own cup. 'Do you want to talk about it ?' she asked.
    'Not really, no,' I replied.
    To take my mind of things, I cooked us spaghetti Bolognese. My smile was forced and we both knew it, but Rene didn’t say anything about it, and let me keep up the cheerful charade.
‘How are classes?’ Rene asked.
She was studying Physics, which I absolutely had no clue about. As I had to drop out of school, I knew nothing about the sciences. I’d barely managed to scrape a C. I wasn’t good at anything apart from English and drama.
    'Okay,' I said.
    I didn't mean to be a bitch, but I wanted time to process everything on my own. I evaded Rene's questions with one word answers and she soon gave up on me.
    'I'm goi ng to see Lewis,' she announced a little too forcefully. 'I'll take the keys with me. Call me if you need anything.'
    I didn't blame for not wanting my company. I wouldn't have been able to stand me either .
    I waited for the sound of her footsteps to recede before I began cutting again. I couldn't stop myself. I always promised myself it would be the last time, and then days or weeks would go by before I had a relapse. I hated myself for falling back into it, but at the same I needed to do it. I was addicted to feeling the razor on my skin.

 

 
    Chapter Five
     
     
    'Ther e's a party tonight,' Rene said the following Saturday.
    I' d been in a sulky mood all week and Rene and I hardly spoken as she was busy with assignments and spending time with her new boyfriend Lewis. I wasn't selfish to want her to be just as miserable as I was. I just wanted to stay at home in pyjamas all weekend.
    'You go,' I told her. 'I don't feel like going anywhere tonight.'
    'Which is exactly why you should go!' Rene said. 'Please, please, please, please,' she begged clutching my arm and giving me puppy dog eyes.
    I was close to giving in and she knew it.
    'Come on, we’ll have a good time,’ Rene said. ‘And if it’s boring or whatever, we’ll just leave.’
    ‘Fine, let’s go,’ I reluctantly agreed. I wasn’t big on parties, but I didn’t want to disappoint Rene. She was my only friend after all, so I felt compelled to go. The two of us changed into our best outfits. Rene looked dazzling with her curly hair up,and a green dress with a slit halfway down her thighs showing off her perfect legs. I stuck to black.
‘Boring,’ Rene said with a pout.
She could pout all she wanted. I was sticking to my dress for one reason only: it had sleeves. I let my hair down and applied the finishing touches of lip gloss. Even after all these years, I still couldn’t wear lipstick, especially red.
‘We look good,’ Rene said as we checked ourselves out in the mirror.
     I laughed as she did a twirl.
     
     
     
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    The party was not my kind of scene. I reluctantly followed Rene as we squeezed our way through groping bodies. I stuck close to Rene, and we even danced together a couple of times. I was getting hot. I could feel the sweat dripping from the back of my head. I gestured at Rene, touching my throat. Rene nodded as she continued dancing with Lewis. I searched the kitchen for light refreshments.
    I froze