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reading the prenup, her eyes widening when she saw the settlement she was entitled to in the event of a divorce. An event that they already had planned.
    “Enough?” he asked.
    She cleared her throat. “I … yes.”
    It was generous. Not enough that she’d never have to work again, but enough to keep her out of abject poverty, and with the full ownership of the manor in addition to the cash settlement it was all more than enough.
    She could sell the manor, get a smaller apartment in town. She’d have enough to buy lattes and eat more than a cup of instant noodles for dinner.
    It was enough that she couldn’t say no. Even if the whole situation made her want to get in the shower and scrub her skin until she could wash away the film it had left on her. Her mother sleeping with his father, hurting his family that way. The idea of marrying just so she could keep her house …
    Okay, so it might seem mercenary marrying for money, but it wasn’t a real marriage. And why shouldn’t she be a little bit mercenary? Everyone in her life had looked out for themselves, they’d used her to make their position in life better. What was wrong with her doing something for herself? And she wasn’t using Ethan, she was helping him. They were helping each other. It was a very good rationalization, anyway.
    “Once we leave here, you aren’t backing out.”
    She shook her head. “I won’t. I can’t.”
    “Just remember, you stand to lose a lot more than I do.”
    “There’s no way I could forget that.” She bit her lip hard, trying to block out the feeling of hopelessness that was rising up in her, a feeling she had become far too familiar with. “Do you have a pen?” she asked, holding out her hand and hoping he didn’t notice the slight tremble in her fingers.
    “You don’t have to sign it yet. We haven’t even applied for the license. The actual wedding won’t be for a while. We’ll have to establish ourselves as a couple. For my grandfather’s satisfaction.”
    “But I’m ready to sign.” She was ready to move forward. Ready to commit one hundred percent.
    “Good.” He took the documents from her and put them back in his pocket. “Are you ready to come with me now?”
    “Now?”
    “Why wait?”
    She looked around the living room, at the last connection to her former life. “No reason. It might take me a while to pack.”
    “I can wait.”
    It was the kind of opulence that felt like both a half-remembered dream and her due at the same time. The kind she had almost forgotten about, but longed for. She’d been reminded, with full and brutal force, just how much she missed it yesterday in Ethan’s office, the warmth and glamour surrounding her like a comforting blanket.
    And now, in the open, expansive suite, she just wanted to throw Ethan out the door and turn circles like the little girl she’d never truly been.
    “Does it meet your standards?” he asked, resting his broad, dark hand on the white marble bar top.
    She turned and forced a smile, trying to ignore the growing ball of emotion in her chest. “Perfectly.”
    “I can have a piano brought in tomorrow, does that work for you?”
    “Yes, absolutely.” A piano too. To go with the lush, amazing view of Central Park. And money. All fine and good to stand on principle and pretend it didn’t matter … when you had some. But when you didn’t … well, that was when you realized how important money was. It might not buy happiness, but it paid power bills, bought food and clothes. Those things made her pretty happy.
    The knot inside her grew larger, made it hard to breathe. She felt … the whole thing just felt wrong, and yet she didn’t think she could walk away. It wasn’t like she was sleeping with him. That would make it all truly reprehensible.
    But she still felt as if she was selling herself.
    Haven’t you always sold yourself?
    What else was performance anyway? She had always been the product. It wasn’t just her music. If her music had