me.
Weâre driving there now in the TV van.
Iâm not worried, but.
Itâll be as ridiculous as all the other stuff.
But itâs important I see it. Itâs important I see exactly what vicious hurtful lies Mrs Figgis and Paige Parker have cooked up between them so I can get Paige Parker sacked from her job and Mrs Figgis run out of town.
I donât want to think.
I donât want to remember what Iâve just seen.
I just want to lie here under this tree and look up at the leaves. If I keep staring at the leaves, I wonât have to remember.
Itâs no good.
I canât get the pictures out of my mind.
Iâve seen some pretty bad paddock damage in my time. From drought. And bushfire. And truck mud-racing. Once at school I saw a photo of what a war can do to an orchard. But Iâve never seen anything like what Paige Parker showed me today.
When we got out of the TV van I just stared.
It was a big paddock and once it would have had fruit trees.
Now itâs just got rows of withered tree skeletons standing in a wasteland of dead grass.
Not burnt.
Not drought-affected.
Not bombed.
Just dead.
âA few weeks ago,â said Paige Parker, suddenly using her TV voice, âthis was a normal healthy orchard. Then we had it sprayed.â
âWhat with?â I whispered.
My hand-movements were so small she couldnât have understood even if sheâd known sign, but she must have seen in my face what I was asking.
âWe used a lot of different sprays,â she said. âIncluding, for purposes of scientific research, sprays now on the danger list. Sprays that farmers were still using in this district up until about ten years ago.â
I realised Paige Parker had paused, and was staring at me intently.
âFarmers,â she said, âincluding your father.â
When I heard this, the tree skeletons started to wobble in front of my eyes and not just because I was standing in the sun.
Then I had a thought.
âHow come,â I wrote shakily on my notepad, âour orchard doesnât look like this?â
I held the notepad up so Paige Parker could read it.
âBecause,â she said, âwe used more chemicals than even the most enthusiastic farmer would use. We wanted to show viewers just what this stuff can do. So they can make up their own minds. About whether these chemical cocktails have the power to tragically ruin the lives of young Australians like you, Rowena.â
I stared at the paddock. No fruit. No leaves. No birds. Not even any insects.
Iâve seen Paige Parker do heaps of segments on TV.
Her facts have always seemed pretty good to me. Theyâve never looked to me like sheâs cooked them up with a revenge-crazed motel proprietor.
What if she hasnât now?
What if these ones are true?
Suddenly I felt weak and had to hold on to the fence.
Then I snatched my hands away in case theyâd sprayed that too.
Paige Parker put her hand on my shoulder.
âIâm sorry we had to show you this, Rowena,â she said, not softly but loud as if she was speaking to several million people. âWe felt you deserved to know the truth.â
Even though my eyes were full of tears, I noticed the cameraman was filming me.
If I could, I would have screamed âSTOP!â But I couldnât, so I ran.
I dashed across the road and jumped into a gully and sprinted along a dry creek bed so they couldnât follow me in the van.
I heard them running after me for a bit. Then the cameraman tripped over something, went sprawling and swore.
âItâs OK, Mike,â I heard Paige Parker say, âweâve got enough.â
I kept running for ages until I came to this tree.
Itâs a huge tree and itâs very green, but even several million leaves arenât enough to distract me.
My chestâs hurting.
Itâs hurting partly from the run and partly from the awful thought Iâm having.
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