Soft spot, sweet spot, opening, blind spot, Itch, Gap, call it what you want but I call it a Hole. To get the best of a situation you gotta know a manâs Hole. Everybodyâs got one, just donât everybody got one in the same place. Some got a Hole in they head. Now, you may think âHole in the headâ is just another way of saying stupid, but âHole in the headâ means more than that. It means that they got a lack and a craving for knowledge. Not just the lack, now, but the craving too. A man could have a Hole just about anywheres: in the head, in the wallet (which means he burns his money), in the pocket (which means he donât got no money to burn but would like some), in the pants, in the guts, in the stomach, in the heart. You offer a person with a Hole in the head some knowledge and they gonna be in yr pocket cause you done gived him the opportunity to taste what he craves, but if a personâs got a Hole in they
heart
and you offer them knowledge, you wonât be able to sway them none. A Hole-in-the-heart person craves company and kindness, not no book.
MRS. FAITH JACKSON
Iâve never seen a girl so happy as Billy Beede walking out my store right now with her wedding dress and them matching shoes all wrapped up in my white store box. Mr. Jackson can say what he likes but itâs the formal-wear business thatâs about making people happy. He says the funeral business is about making people happy but Iâve never seen no one smiling at a funeral. He doesnât think Lincolnâs got the economy to support a formal-wear store and, tell the truth, I donât turn a profit. If it werenât for people dying, we would be out on the street. But, seeing as how folks do continue to die, I can, every once in awhile, afford to sell a hundred-thirty-dollar dress and a pair of twenty-dollar shoes for sixty-three dollars. Seeing as how the Funeral Home is doing so well, and folks is always continuing to die, and Jacksonâs is the most respected Home, black or white, in the county, which means folks come out of their way to have us help them in their time of grief, and seeing as how Billy has her dead mother buried all the way out in Who-Knows-Where, Arizona, and seeing as how her Mr. Snipes, the man Jackson says is trash, has done right and asked her to marry him, I figure I can sell my showcase dress for the price she can afford.
Laz is gonna be broken up about it. Heâs had his cap set on Billy Beede for the longest. Too long, I told him when he said heâd seen her running with Snipes. Much too long, Mr. Jackson said when we all seen Billyâs belly. Just cause you set your cap on someone, donât mean sheâll set her cap on you.
You have to make the best of what God gives you, thatâs what I say. Thatâs how I live my life. Married Jackson when I was not but fifteen. I was in the family way, but not like Billy Beede. My Israel had already spoken for me, and my mother and dad both were living. I was showing but I could walk around this town with my head up. Not like Billy Beede: shoulders pinched together, her head hanging down like a buzzard.
Me and Israel didnât plan on getting married so early but we did. I had hoped to have a slew of girls. We had two boys. I had hoped Siam-Israel would run the Funeral Home with Israel, and Laz would be a doctor and deliver babies. That woulda dovetailed nicely, you know, cradle to grave with the funeral business weâve already got. Nothing worked out like I hoped. Siam is doing time over at Huntsville and Laz, well letâs just say that Laz is doing his best. Doing the best with what we got. Thatâs the most that any of us can ask.
DILL SMILES
They call me bulldagger, dyke, lezzy, what-have-you. I like my overalls and my work boots. Let them say what they want. It donât bother me none.
I take the letter back from Teddy. Weâre still waiting here on his porch for Billy. She