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yourself without the validation of a grateful kiss.
    Lix required some courage in his life. He’d “let the student
down.” Betrayed the boy. He’d confirmed his lack of fortitude, his recent, growing fear of taking risks, of giving any offense. “Dear cousin Freda” had defeated him again. He’d lied to Mouetta and he’d disappointed her. Masturbation would not help him make amends. Besides, the rain was soaking him again. He licked the water from his upper lip. He took deep breaths. He tried to draw some daring from the air.
    No one who knew him could say that Lix was bold or unpredictable. He was, as you’d expect, rehearsed and hesitant in everything, including sex. Now, for once, he was an activist. What he was doing was a risk. He tucked his penis in his pants, zipped up his trousers, not without difficulty, fixed his belt, squelched through mud and water yet again, and got back in the car as noisily as he could. He turned the interior light on. He banged about. He almost hit the buttons of the radio, to fill the car with jazz and rock.
    Mouetta was still sleeping, though she’d swung her body around, away from him, and was still making a pillow from the tightly stretched webbing of the seat belt. Her back was arched, her jacket high, her blouse pulled free of its moorings at her waist, two vertebrae and the top centimeter of her underpants adding to Lix’s resolve.
    His plan was adolescent and barefaced. He would wrap his arms around his wife to wake her, an innocent embrace, then he would say—a worthless promise, as he well knew—that he had decided they should, at first light, return to the campus to collect her cousin’s student. That was their duty as progressive, decent citizens. The militia would surely have dispersed by then, and in
any case, he was certain he could bluff his way through, flaunt his name maybe, offer a bribe. Signed photographs of Lix were almost currency. He’d kiss her face, perhaps. Remark how beautiful she was. Remind her that the third year of their marriage had begun. Apologize for being grumpy in the restaurant. Indeed, he’d use apologies to make her twist her body back to his.
    Actually he need not have slammed the door, turned on the light, or persevered with this duplicity with such juvenile clumsiness. Mouetta had been dreaming, not sexual dreams, but something frightening. Her cousin Freda had been tortured, killed; Mouetta had been handcuffed, too, and they—the police, the waiters in the Debit restaurant, her aunts and uncles, long since dead—were kicking her and tugging at her clothes. Freda’s purse was pulled apart. Her body was a sack, changing shape as every toe cap struck. She herself was kicking Freda, harder than the rest, kicking her for George. It was a dream too real to face alone. Lix only had to touch her lightly on the back, between the jacket and the belt, on her cool flesh, for Mouetta to respond to him. She wanted hugs and kisses anyway, to save her from the nightmare. So when her husband’s hand insinuated itself underneath her blouse and held her breasts, she was quite happy to be touched. It seemed like tenderness. He’d rescued her. She turned her face to his and they were kissing before she had a chance to say a word about her cousin Freda and the horrors they had shared.
    She was hospitable and motherly at first. Her usual expertise. She welcomed him. She catered for his hands. She gave encouragement. Soon the enterprise engulfed her, too. Her heart was
thunderous and beating on her ribs, as loudly and passionately as the rain was drumming on the Panache’s glass and metal roof. She had been quickly comforted, but there was something else to satisfy. The drama of the banking riots and the drive across the wayward city to save the student crouching underneath the desk had animated her. How good it was to have survived the dream, to be alive and sensitive to tongues and