across the floor. Gil heard a voice saying, âYouâre awake. Iâm sorry. I should have come in earlier.â
Gil lifted his head. Unconsciously, he drew his long tangled hair out of his eyes, and looked up. A man was silhouetted in the doorway, a man wearing a business-suit and polished shoes.
âWho are you?â he asked, hoarsely. âWhat the hell has happened to me?â
The man said, âYouâve changed, thatâs all.â
âFor Christâs sake, look at me. What the hell is going on here? Did you do this with hormones, or what? Iâm a man! Iâm a
man
, for Christâs sake!â Gil began to weep, and the tears slid down his cheeks and tasted salt on his lips.
The man came forward and knelt down beside himand laid a comforting hand on his shoulder. âIt wasnât hormones. If I knew how it happened, believe me, Iâd tell you. But all I know is, it happens. One man to the next. The man who was Anna before me â the man who took the body that used to be mine â he told me everything about it, just as Iâm telling you â and just as
youâll
tell the next man that you pick.â
At that moment, the bedroom door swung a little wider, and the manâs face was illuminated by the light from the hallway. With a surge of paralyzing fright, Gil saw that the man was him. His own face, his own hair, his own smile. His own wristwatch, his own suit. And outside in the hallway, his own suitcase, already packed.
âI donât understand,â he whispered. He wiped the tears away from his face with his fingers.
âI donât think any of us ever will,â the man told him. âThere seems to be some kind of pattern to it; some kind of reason why it happens; but thereâs no way of finding out what it is.â
âBut you knew this was going to happen all along,â said Gil. âRight from the very beginning. You
knew.
â
The man nodded. Gil should have been violent with rage. He should have seized the man by the throat and beaten his head against the wall. But the man was him, and for some inexplicable reason he was terrified of touching him.
The man said, quietly, âIâm sorry for you. Please believe me. But Iâm just as sorry for myself. I used to be a man like you. My name was David Chilton. I was thirty-two years old, and I used to lease executive aircraft. I had a family, a wife and two daughters, and a house in Darien, Connecticut.â
He paused, and then he said, âFour months ago I came to Amsterdam and met Anna. One thing led to another, and she took me back here. She used to make me makelove to her, night after night. Then one morning I woke up and
I
was Anna, and Anna was gone.â
Gil said, âI canât believe any of this. This is madness. Iâm having a nightmare.â
The man shook his head. âItâs true; and itâs been happening to one man after another, for years probably.â
âHow do you know that?â
âBecause Anna took my passport and my luggage, and it seemed to me that there was only one place that she could go â
he
could go. Only one place where he could survive in my body and with my identity.â
Gil stared at him. âYou mean â your own home? He took your body and went to live in your own home?â
The man nodded. His face was grim. Gil had never seen himself look so grim before.
âI found Annaâs passport and Annaâs bank-books â donât worry, Iâve left them all for you. I flew to New York and then rented a car and drove up to Connecticut. I parked outside my own house and watched myself mowing my own lawn, playing with my own daughters, kissing my own wife.â
He lowered his head, and then he said, âI could have killed him, I guess. Me, I mean â or at least the person who looked like me. But what would that have achieved? I would have made a widow out of my own wife, and
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