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her leading man. But she has to see that I am the leading man. I am the only man. She will see this and if she doesn’t I will make her. I closed my eyes and accepted my touchdown. I ran fifty yards and I deserve the points. I earned them.
    We s at in silence for a while. I knew Kari was kicking herself for being honest with me. She has become guarded over the course of our tumultuous relationship. She thinks I will hurt her again. She doesn’t feel safe with me but she is safe with me. I have so much work to do to get her back. Good for me I like to work, I love a challenge. I worked for everything I have. I will work just as hard to get my girl back. She will be back. She will be mine. I have nothing to lose but her. I refuse to lose. Losing is for losers and winning is all I’ve ever known. I plan to keep it that way.
    “I need to tell you something. ” I decided to make the first move.
    “All you have been doing is talking.”
    “I did more than talk last night.”
    “You know what I mean.”
    “ I wanted to tell you this before. All those times I sat down and had lunch with you, I wanted to tell you.  I always chickened out. In the past, I have always kept things from you.”
    “Why?” She inquired and I knew I had to be honest. I had to tell her the whole truth.
    “Because I w as always trying to protect you.”
    “Protect me, from what?”
    “Everything, I see now that I was wrong. I care about what you think. I care about what you feel. I want you to be safe. I can’t stand to see you hurting.”
    “You are not my father. I have a father right over on the Westside.”
    “I know that. It’s one of the biggest mistakes I made in our relationship. I see things differently now that we have had so much time apart.”
    “Is that it? Is there more?”
    “There’s more.”
    Kari sighed. “What do you need to tell me?”
    I took a deep breath. I wasn’t sure how Kari would accept this random odd revelation. “I almost killed a man.”
    Kari was just blankly staring at me. “What?”
    “I beat the crap out of this child molester. I almost killed him. I almost beat him to death.”
    “With your bare hands?”
    “With the butt of a gun mostly.”
    “A gun.”
    “My glock.”
    “Mason.” Kari looked worried by my vigilante antics. It felt liberating to confess my sins.
    “ I couldn’t stop myself.”
    “How do you know he was a child molester?”
    “He was tried and convicted a few years back. He recently got out on parole.”
    “Jesus Mason.”
    “I was obsessed with him. He’s Tess’ uncle. I was out of it. I scared myself. My rage was out of control. I couldn’t control myself. I was watching him, stalking him. I’m not proud of it but I was obsessed. I caught him with a kid in an alley and I flipped out. I beat him bad. It’s like I turned into this monster. I’m not happy with the man I am when I’m not with you.”
    “What do you want me to say?”
    “I don’t know. I want you to know these things about me. I want to know that you still love me even though I’m not perfect or what you thought I was. I want you to know the real me, the fucked up parts, the truly crazy scary parts.”
    “I know you’re not perfect. I know the real man you are. I know the fucked up parts of you too.”
    “I think you still love me. I think this despite all that’s happened between us. I had never imagined our connection would be like this.”
    “You didn’t imagine it. I have never lied to you. I have never held anything from you. The way I felt was real. You never have to question or second guess that.”
    “So what’s the problem? We are meant to be.”
    “Mason, w hy do you think we are supposed to be together?”
    “Because we love each other.” Shit isn’t it apparent. All we need is love. I waited and waited and waited some more. Kari turned her body and attention to me.
    “Mason, fine , I love you. I admitted it. I still love you. I probably always will but what makes you