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experience for you.”
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    Jordan watched as Carl dressed. The reason for his visit was done, now he would leave and go back to his place, and Jordan would be alone with her cat. Sexually satisfied, but alone.
    That was the way she wanted it, right? Except something gnawed at her. She sat up in bed and wrapped the sheet around her. “Carl?”
    He zipped his jeans and reached for his shirt. “Hmm?”
    “Do you ever want more than...” Than what? Being fuck buddies? She waved her hand around. “This.”
    “Not really, no.” He didn’t even hesitate before answering. “I told you, I did forever once. It didn’t work out. I have lower expectations now.”
    Lower expectations? Jordan knew he didn’t mean it as a slight, but it was hard not to take it as one.
    Carl bent down and kissed her forehead. “I’ll call you in a few days, okay?”
    “Sure, okay.” Jordan listened as he let himself out of her house. Before long, Cujo made her way into room and jumped on the bed. See. It’s not like I’m ever actually alone!
    Something about Beth’s words lingered, though. Carl’s feelings made sense. He’d been married, and it ended badly. Jordan didn’t fault him for not wanting to do it again.
    She’d never done the forever thing before, though. She’d never even gotten close; never let herself get close. As Jordan thought about why, she realized that Beth was annoyingly right, and she hated when Beth was right.
    “Fine!” She tossed the sheet aside, jumped out of bed and pulled a T-shirt on as she walked down the hall. She pulled the local phone directory from the drawer in the coffee table, then grabbed the cordless phone.
    At the third hotel she dialed, she found success. Jake Morrison was registered there and the reception desk connected her to his room. The phone line rang through with no answer and went to the message system. Jordan looked at the clock. Almost ten, and he wasn’t in his room. Chances were he’d found someone else to spend time with and had already forgotten about Jordan, just as she’d told him to do. She should hang up.
    See, Beth. I was right about what he wanted, and he found it somewhere else. Or maybe he had an early set call and turned the phone off to get some sleep. Don’t automatically assume the worst about someone, Jordan. You don’t like it when people do that to you.
    “Jake, it’s Jordan. I hope things are going well with the movie. I’m sorry about last night. I shouldn’t have blindsided you like that. We probably should talk, if you’re still interested. Give me a call.” She was shaking by the time she left both her home and cell numbers and hung up, hoping she hadn’t made a huge mistake.
     

Chapter 5
     
    Jordan changed clothes three times and still couldn’t decide what to wear.
    “Try this.” Beth handed her a blue kimono-style blouse. “It matches your eyes, and it’ll look great with the white jeans.”
    Jordan took the top from her. “Thanks.” She pulled it over her head and stepped back to study herself in the mirror. “Hmm. Not bad.” She tucked a wayward strand of blond e hair behind her ear.
    “Are you kidding?” Beth scoffed. “You look gorgeous. So much so that if I didn’t like you so much, I might hate you.” She sat down on the bed. “As it is, I just hate that you can get away with wearing wear blue.”
    Jordan glanced over at her friend’s red curls. “Yes, but you can wear brown, so it balances out.” She walked over to the shoe rack to select a pair of sandals. “I look like a dead ghost in brown.”
    “It’s not quite that bad.” Beth laughed. “By the way, I love how nervous you are right now.”
    “I’m not nervous,” Jordan insisted as she grabbed a pair of mid-heel Catatude sandals in the same shade of blue as the blouse. ‘Scared to death’ would be more accurate, but no way was she admitting that. “Why would I be nervous?”
    “Um, maybe because you have a date with a sexy movie star?”
    Movie star.