that?â Ostermanâs fanged mouth dripped blood, his hot breath sulphurous. âDid you say something? Try again! Weâre listening.â
Kev exploded out of the bed with a scream of rage, ripping out tubes, IVs, leaping at the guy. He bore Osterman to the floor.
Screaming. Grabbing. Punching. Cold tile against his cheek. Hands held him, pulling him from his prey, andâoh, shit. The sting of a needle.
Back down into that hole, fast. Only place to hide, inside his own head, in the deepest, darkest place. Lights out. Shut down.
Shovelfuls of earth rained heavily down on top of his mental hiding place, until the blackness was absolute.
CHAPTER
2
E die Parrish scanned the entrance of the restaurant and the twilit street outside as she sipped her red wine. No sign of Dadâs upright figure striding, coat flapping around his legs. She deliberately released the tension in her chest, her face, her hands. Squeeze, release. Breathe, slow. In, out. This dinner would be fine. Dad himself had asked for her to meet him. She would take that as a gesture of peace. She had to.
Because she wanted to see Ronnie, desperately. She ached for it. Dad held the keys to that tower. It was his most effective instrument for controlling his uncontrollable daughter, and he used it mercilessly, punishing her for all perceived misbehaviors by keeping her away from her little sister. The strategy was brilliant in its simplicity.
God knows, if not for Ronnie, sheâd have run away years ago.
She swallowed down the bitter gall of old anger. Maybe tonight sheâd have some stroke of brilliance to persuade him. Maybe Dad would have a change of heart. She had to hope.
She sank down into her chair, glanced around to make sure she was unobserved, and gave into the guilty impulse, flipping through the pages of her smallest sketchbook until she found one with some space to fill. She shook hair over her face, for discretionâs sake, and resumed people watching. Her eyes softened, absorbing infinitesimal details that her conscious mind didnât perceive as important enough to notice. This would get her into trouble for sure, but she couldnât resist. When she watched people, her fingers itched for the pen, the pencil. She knew sheâd pay for it, but there was a part of her that just didnât care. And that part always, always won.
An obsession, her parents had called it. And so? What if it was?
Her eyes seized on the death-of-a-salesman type across the room, the stringy comb-over, the reddened nose, the eye bags. He was consuming his prime rib and baked potato with glum ferocity. Edie rendered him with a few swift pen strokes, and then tried again, trying to capture the set of his shoulders, the defeated look.
The weirdness started to happen, like it always did. Her brain kicked into a new gear. It felt like an eye, opening up deep inside her, seeing everything more deeply, more brightly. The world outside the focus of her eyes blurred. Her perception widened, deepened, softened. Her pen went by itself. Time ceased to move. God, she freaking loved it.
The sounds of the restaurant disappeared as she caught the dull anger in the broken veins across his nose, the aggression in his down-turned mouth, the heavy sadness of his hanging jowls.
He was avoiding home. Using work as an excuse to stay as far away as he could from the grandson he and his wife were raising. The child was violent, hyperactive, with learning disabilities, attention deficit disorder. His wife was exhausted, desperate, at her witâs end. So angry at him for abandoning her to deal with it all alone. Again.
He fled that situation every day, just as heâd fled similar problems with the boyâs mother, his promiscuous, drugaddled daughter. He felt like shit about it, but he could not change. He didnât have the strength.
Oh, God, how sad, how awful. Edie dragged her eyes away from the unlucky guy and stared out at the lights on the