heat water for a hot bottle.
Confused, shaken, and racked with pain, she felt acutely grateful to Jacob Tanios in that moment. The relief of feeling oneself in capable hands. He gave you just that feeling of assuranceâof confidenceâthat a doctor ought to give.
There was somethingâsomething she couldnât quite get hold ofâsomething vaguely disquietingâbut she wouldnât think of it now. She would drink this and go to sleep as they told her.
But surely there was something missingâsomeone.
Oh well, she wouldnât think⦠Her shoulder hurt herâShe drank down what she was given.
She heard Dr. Tanios sayâand in what a comfortable assured voiceââSheâll be all right, now.â
She closed her eyes.
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She awoke to a sound that she knewâa soft, muffled bark.
She was wide awake in a minute.
Bobânaughty Bob! He was barking outside the front doorâhis own particular âout all night very ashamed of himselfâ bark, pitched in a subdued key but repeated hopefully.
Miss Arundell strained her ears. Ah, yes, that was all right. She could hear Minnie going down to let him in. She heard the creak of the opening front door, a confused low murmurâMinnieâs futile reproachesââOh, you naughty little doggieâa very naughty little Bobsieââ She heard the pantry door open. Bobâs bed was under the pantry table.
And at that moment Emily realized what it was she had subconsciously missed at the moment of her accident. It was Bob. All that commotionâher fall, people runningânormally Bob would have responded by a crescendo of barking from inside the pantry.
So that was what had been worrying her at the back of her mind. But it was explained nowâBob, when he had been let out last night, had shamelessly and deliberately gone off on pleasure bent. From time to time he had these lapses from virtueâthough his apologies afterwards were always all that could be desired.
So that was all right. But was it? What else was there worrying her, nagging at the back of her head. Her accidentâsomething to do with her accident.
Ah, yes, somebody had saidâCharlesâthat she had slipped on Bobâs ball which he had left on the top of the stairsâ¦.
The ball had been thereâhe had held it up in his handâ¦.
Emily Arundellâs head ached. Her shoulder throbbed. Her bruised body sufferedâ¦.
But in the midst of her suffering her mind was clear and lucid. She was no longer confused by shock. Her memory was perfectly clear.
She went over in her mind all the events from six oâclock yesterday evening⦠She retraced every stepâ¦till she came to the moment when she arrived at the stairhead and started to descend the stairsâ¦.
A thrill of incredulous horror shot through herâ¦.
Surelyâsurely, she must be mistaken⦠One often had queer fancies after an event had happened. She triedâearnestly she triedâto recall the slippery roundness of Bobâs ball under her footâ¦.
But she could recall nothing of the kind.
Insteadâ
âSheer nerves,â said Emily Arundell. âRidiculous fancies.â
But her sensible, shrewd, Victorian mind would not admit that for a moment. There was no foolish optimism about the Victorians. They could believe the worst with the utmost ease.
Emily Arundell believed the worst.
Four
M ISS A RUNDELL W RITES A L ETTER
I t was Friday.
The relations had left.
They left on the Wednesday as originally planned. One and all, they had offered to stay on. One and all they had been steadfastly refused. Miss Arundell explained that she preferred to be âquite quiet.â
During the two days that had elapsed since their departure, Emily Arundell had been alarmingly meditative. Often she did not hear what Minnie Lawson said to her. She would stare at her and curtly order her to begin all over