be true mates. Sometimes I wonder why his wolf chose to be with me at all. I mean, I know most werewolves never find their true mates, that they end up mating without that tie. But don’t they worry that someday their mate will meet their true mate and leave them?”
Obviously that worried Cassie.
“It’s rare to find your true mate,” Dusty replied. “It’s unlikely that Cain is mine. The human half of us falls in love the same way you humans do, and our wolves are happy with that. Like humans, it’s possible for werewolves to leave their mates—if they’re not their true mate. But that hardly ever happens. And from what I can see Jay adores you, Cassie. You’re his everything. Don’t ever think you’re not.”
“It’s not the same though, is it? I’m not the other half of his soul. We’re not as closely connected as we would be if we were true mates. Sure, it sounds kind of scary— being able to hear each other’s thoughts, feel the other’s emotions. But also beautiful. Don’t you want to know if you could have that with Cain?”
“He’s better off staying well away from me.”
“But why? He cares about you.”
“I could have had him once, but I pushed him away. Now I’m doing what’s best for both of us by keeping my distance.”
“Dusty, you’re being stupid. Get off your butt and stop moping.”
“Cain deserves someone better than me. He deserves someone whole.”
“You are whole,” Cassie insisted impatiently. “Your leg is still there.”
“I’m not talking about my leg. I’m talking about my wolf. My wolf is gone,” Dusty snapped.
Cassie abruptly pulled the car to the side of the road. Slamming on the brakes, she turned to stare at Dusty in shock.
“What are you talking about? You’re still a werewolf.”
“Am I? You know this for a fact, do you?” Dusty already regretted her outburst. But she’d been unable to keep it inside any longer. She had to tell someone. And she knew Cassie could keep a secret. Her packmates would feel obliged to tell Cooper. Cassie wouldn’t.
“Is that possible? Does anyone know?”
“Must be possible, because I’m living it.”
“But surely the others would have noticed if your wolf was gone.”
“She’s still there,” Dusty acknowledged. “I just can’t change. I can’t merge with her. She’s sluggish. Weak. Sleeping, I guess.”
“Does Cain know?”
“Why would Cain know?” Dusty asked.
“Well, because you two—”
“Are nothing.”
“You’re wrong, Dusty. You and Cain are meant for each other, any fool can see it. I can tell how much he cares about you. His feelings aren’t fickle. Unless you’re not attracted to him anymore?”
“That’s not the problem.” Oh no, she still wanted him.
“You’re hurting him by shutting him out. You should tell him.”
“About my wolf? Are you insane?” Dusty gaped at her.
“Why not? He can help. You need someone to help you figure out what is going on.”
“No one can help. Look, you’ve got to promise not to tell anyone, especially not Cain. Maybe my leg will get better, maybe my wolf will come back. But no one can know. I don’t know how this happened or if it can be reversed. I have no fucking idea what is going on. What I do know is that I don’t want anyone’s pity. I don’t want Cain thinking he has to take care of me. I don’t want any of that crap. Understand?”
Cassie nodded, but she was frowning.
“I don’t want him thinking that I want him because I can’t take care of myself.”
Cassie snorted. “Right, because you’re so helpless. Even injured and without your wolf you can still kick ass. I don’t know Cain that well, but what I do know of him is that he’s smart and loyal and he practically eats you up with his eyes. He was willing to give me a chance when others didn’t. I think you should tell him. I think he’ll surprise you. Trust him.”
Dusty’s attention shifted to a dark car coming to a stop behind them. Her
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