once. He was so funny. Funny and inspiring. He made it all seem so simple. We were an auditorium full of students, raw beginners. Yet we came away feeling we were brilliant and accomplished, that we could do anything, that we understood what makes a building work, what makes it both fully functional and full ofâ¦meaning, too. Then, after he spoke, there was a party for the upperclassmen and professors, with Donovan the guest of honor. I was a freshman, not invited. But I heard how he amazed them all, how fascinating he was, how full of life, howâ¦interested in everything and everyone. We all wanted to be just like him when we grew up.â
âI keep waiting,â Ben said, âfor the day I wake up and heâs changed back into the man he used to be. But itâs been a while now. And the change is nowhere on the horizon.â
She asked the central question. âSo. What happened to him? Was it the accident on the mountain?â
Ben only smiled. âThat, I really canât tell you. Youâll have to find out from him.â
She scoffed. âI donât think Iâll hold my breath.â
âHe likes you.â
That made her laugh. âOh, come on.â
âSeriously. He does. I know him well enough by now to read him a little, at least. He finds you fascinating. And attractiveâboth of which you are.â
Was Ben flirting with her? She slid him a look. He was still staring off into the middle distance. So maybe not. âWell, if youâre right, I would hate to see how he treats someone he doesnât like.â
âHe ignores them. He ignores almost everyone now.Just pretends they arenât even there. Sends me or Olga to deal with them.â
She gathered her knees up to the side. âThis evening, before dinner, someone arrived and was sent away, someone in a red Cadillac. I didnât see who, but I heard a womanâs voice talking to Olga at the doorâ¦.â
Ben shrugged. âPeople come by, now and then. When they get fed up with him not returning their calls. When they canât take the waiting, the wondering if heâs all right, the stewing over what could be going on with him.â
âPeople likeâ¦?â
âOld friends. Mountain climbers he used to know, used to partner with. Beginning architects he once encouraged.â
âOld girlfriends, too?â
âYes.â Ben sent her a patient glance. âOld girlfriends, too.â
She predicted, âEventually, theyâll all give up on him. Heâll get what he seems to be after. To be completely alone.â
Benâs dark eyes gleamed. âWith his cook and his housekeeper and his engineer.â
She told him gently, âI didnât mean that as a criticism of you.â
He smiled. A warm smile. âI know you didnât.â
âI just donât get whatâs up with him.â
âWell, donât worry. Youâre not the only one.â
âHow will he live, if he doesnât work? This house alone must cost a fortune to run.â
âHis books still make money.â
âBut an architect needs clients. Weâre not like painters or writers. We canât go into a room and lock the door and turn out a masterpiece and then try to sell itâ¦.â
âI know,â Ben said softly. He admitted, âEventually,there could be a problem. But not for a few years yet, anywayâ¦.â There was a silence. Ben was gazing off toward the courtyard again.
Finally, she said, âYou seemed pretty stuffy at first.â
He chuckled. âLike the butler in one of those movies with Emma Thompson, right?â
âPretty much. But now I realize youâre not like someoneâs snobby butler, not in the least. Youâre okay, Ben.â
He did look at her then. His dark eyes were so sad. âI was afraid, after the way he behaved at dinner, that heâd succeeded in chasing you off. I hope he
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