only a phone call away from Melbourne, Dad had said. I desperately wanted to hear his voice now. âBut, Gran, canât we ring Dad? Please.â
âMaybe. I know you miss him, love, but heâll be busy at work. Letâs get the news update tonight and then you can phone him.â
I sat at the kitchen table while Gran went off to dry her hair and get dressed. Poor Mum. Her and Dad were both so far away. I thought of what it was like when we all lived together. And I thought of how Lucky seemed to understand how I hated them fighting. I scribbled a poem on the back of Granâs shopping list. Iâd write it in my poetry journal later.
Day 3 - A Fight
Mum and Dad are in the kitchen
shouting
Iâm under the pear tree
I donât want to hear the words
neither does Lucky
heâs got his head on my knee
his ears down
Gran is one of those people who makes you feel better just by coming into the room. When she came back and Iâd sobbed out a few more concerns and sheâd made us both a piece of toast, the whole situation didnât seem quite so bad. We decided the only thing we could do was wait for Sylviaâs phone call that evening. Gran said it was no use worrying over milk we werenât even sure had been spilt. But I could tell she was worried. As she left the kitchen to go and get dressed, she put the empty milk carton in the fridge and tossed out the fresh one. She didnât even notice when it thumped to the bottom of the bin.
Chapter 9
Yesterday dragged on for so long, it felt like the sun had got stuck up in the sky. Another day without Lucky and waiting for the evening â the time Sylvia said she would ring with more news about Mum â was agony. I couldnât settle to do anything. Not even the book of jokes Mum gave me for Christmas could keep my mind off her. And Gran cooked one of my favourite meals â meatballs in tomato sauce â for dinner, but I hardly touched it.
Then Sylvia didnât even ring. All that agony for nothing. I went to bed at eleven oâclock. Gran wouldnât let me stay up any later, even though I begged her.
âIâll let you know if we get any news,â she said. âGo to bed and get some sleep.â
Yeah, Gran â as if .
I knew I wouldnât be able to sleep thinking about Mum. And it had been four whole days since Lucky went missing. Iâd been back to the police station and the pound every day. At two oâclock in the morning my thoughts were darker than the night outside and my chest ached from loneliness. I tried to think of something funny to cheer myself up, and wrote a poem about the Muffin Incident .
Day 4 - Afternoon Tea
I arrive home from school
to a cinnamon smell â
Mumâs in the kitchen
going nuts
Luckyâs in the corner
ears flat
tail between his legs
Mumâs best plate
is in pieces
on the floor
and thereâs no sign
of the muffins
The night seemed even longer than the day. Iâm sure I was awake for most of it and, when I wasnât, I dreamt about telephones in all sorts of strange places, ringing so loudly I woke up a couple of times with my heart pounding.
And in the middle of the night, the silence in our hallway was unbearable.
Thatâs why, when I heard the first bird chirp before dawn, I knew I had to get to the river. I needed to get away from the worry of waiting for the phone to ring.
The river, first thing in the morning, is like magic. The dewdrops on the grass and leaves remind me of mini-suns, with their white light glistening from rainbow centres. I love to breathe in the air that still has some of the night smell of river mud and eucalyptus left in it. When Iâm at home in Melbourne, sometimes I lie in bed with my eyes closed and imagine this exact spot. I conjure up the morning river smell and it brings me here when I need to come.
When we came up for Grandpaâs funeral I spent ages at the river, sitting on my