that it was your mother keeping you from being an outright villain,” Ryan said in a low voice. “And no matter what the guy says, I think you were the ultimate prize. Not your blood.”
It made me sick. It made me hate Killjoy a little more every time I thought about it. Because Ryan wasn’t wrong. There had been a whole lot of crazy mixed in there, that if I could just “see the light,” I’d be his and we’d, what? Go on to cause chaos and destruction like some super-powered Bonnie and Clyde?
More than the hate, though, was the guilt and self-loathing. How had I missed it? How had I been so gullible? So stupid? How had I let myself get involved in any way with a guy I knew nothing about?
How had I let myself be so easy to manipulate? How weak was I, that a few kind words and the whole “baby I’m here for you” act had actually worked?
I took a breath and pushed it away. It wasn’t a mistake I’d make again. “So, it looks like I’m going to pay someone a visit.”
“Not alone,” Dani said.
“Yes, alone,” I said. “I’ll get in, do some digging, and get out. Preferably without him even knowing I’ve been there. I want to catch him, but I want answers about Killjoy’s bullshit more. We can grab Daemon another time.”
“We need intel now,” Jenson said in agreement.
“So what this job comes down to is breaking and entering without getting caught. Which means, me,” I said with a smile.
“I don’t like the idea of you going in alone. Who knows what he’s got in there.”
“I won’t be completely alone. Not really,” I said, tilting my head toward Ryan. “David created this environmental monitoring system thing for me to wear—“
“Because you’re too damn stubborn to just let us go in with you all the time,” Ryan grumbled.
“Because I need to be fast and focused sometimes. Which we’ve been over before,” I said. “So I’ll wear this thing David made. It monitors my body conditions, but there’s also a cam that will ‘see’ what I’m seeing, as well as temperature and chemical sensors. Basically, it displays in real-time what I’m experiencing, as well as what’s going on at every other angle. Three-sixty camera.”
“Great, so we can watch video after?” Dani asked.
“No. It’s as close as we’re gonna get to me being there with her. I can pick up any faint sounds, things in the shadows via the live feed and let her know if someone’s trying to sneak up on her or anything like that,” Ryan said.
“So you’re monitoring it,” Dani said, nodding. “Okay, I feel a little better now.”
“Glad someone does,” Ryan said.
“When I need help with asskicking, you guys are the first ones who’ll be there with me. I couldn’t have handled the lab the way I did if you’d been with me. Sometimes, things are a one-woman job.”
Ryan didn’t answer, but the set of his shoulders was rigid, just like every time we’d discussed how we’d handle missions like this. This would be our first time actually using the stuff David had made for us. I’d heard every argument against my desire to go in alone, and he’d finally realized that I could out-stubborn him, even on his best day. Didn’t mean he was happy about it.
“What’s the neighborhood like? Expensive, I’m guessing?” I asked Jenson. Ryan cleared his throat, and we all shut up while the waitress set two pizzas in the middle of the table. We busied ourselves filling our plates and we ate for a bit.
“Actually, it’s just kind of a normal neighborhood. Not what we were expecting,” David said after a while. “Mostly two-bedroom houses, small yards. If he’s getting rich, which we know he is because we’ve dug into some of his records already, he’s definitely not spending it on his house.”
“Probably a lot of it is going to Killjoy,” I said. I took another bite of my pizza and thought. “Any way you can trace where his money goes?”
Jenson shook her head. “We’ve tried. The