you?â His voice trailed off at the end, as if he, too, realized what an awkward situation they were in.
âIf youâre like Ryder, time doesnât matter.â But it mattered to her and to this man sitting beside her, looking at her way too seriously and with too much compassion.
âI respect what you feel about honoring your familyâs loyalties, onlyââ
âItâs an outdated concept in todayâs world, where anyone can do anything and not worry about the consequences?â
As if she hadnât harshly interrupted, Sebastian calmly continued, âI know how hard it is. I just wish that you could find some peace with that duty. With what you want most for you, in here.â He emphasized that statement by pointing to the spot above his heart.
Melissa struggled for something to say, something that could break the connection she was experiencing with him, only she couldnât find the words.
At her prolonged silence, he finally said, âWhen did you find out what Ryder was?â
âIâm not sure I like all these questions,â she replied softly.
Sebastian laid a hand on her arm. âI just need to know more before I commit.â
Seeing that he wasnât going to give up, Melissa relaxed against the back of the bench. Sebastian removed his hand from her arm. Funny how she sensed the absence of it. Of the quiet strength in his long slender fingers. âI found out about Ryder a little over a year ago. When my parents died.â
âIs that whenââ
âI became hisâ¦personal physician,â she answered and shot a quick look at him to gauge his reaction.
He smiled as she acquiesced to his earlier request, but then he became serious once more. âYou resent it, donât you?â
âBroken record time. I think you asked that already.â
He held up a finger. âBut you didnât really answer.â
Maybe she hadnât answered because she didnât want to discuss it. Especially not with Sebastian. She had given him her body, but she was afraid of giving him more.
âThis is the point where I should realize this is something youâd rather not discuss,â he said.
Melissa hated the tension between them. Trying to ease the strain, she adopted a lighthearted tone. âI would very much appreciate a change of topic.â
He smiled sadly, but the sadness faded as he leaned his head against the padded bench, clearly thinking about something.
Melissa was suddenly impatient to hear what he would say next, and realized she liked that he was unpredictable.
âOkay, so letâs talk about your favorite kind of food.â
The very abrupt change in subject threw her, but brought a hesitant smile to her lips. âAnd why would we want to do that?â
He turned the full force of his gaze on her. Her heart did that funky thing again in the middle of her chest.
âSo I know what kind of restaurant to take you to.â
His interest shouldnât have pleased her. She didnât have time for a normal life. She couldnât become involved with him. He was carefree, funâ¦young. Not the kind of guy whoâd want to live her kind of life. Despite that, she found herself exercising a rarely used skillâflirtation.
âWhat makes you think Iâd want to go?â She bestowed on him her best come-hither smile. Or at least, she hoped it was that and not a grimace. Her smile muscles felt stiff.
Sebastian scrutinized her face, obviously unsure of where he stood, before shooting her a quick grin. âLetâs just say that I know you want to go, but that you also want to keep it all business. So we will.â
âWe will what?â she asked, perplexed.
âKeep it business. You can tell me more about the journals while I think about what equipment we need and how Iâll program things.â
She shouldnât have been disappointed. He was doing the right thing, just