and a huge, utterly wild and unkempt weeping willow stood by the house. Whole tribes could be living in the thing unbeknownst.
Val pulled up under one of the pecan trees and we climbed out. I had to hit the car door hard with the heel of my hand to get it open. She’d warned me it stuck some times. From the trunk she took a canvas book bag that looked to serve as a briefcase. A squirrel sat on a limb just above, fussily chattering at us.
“I’ve only got two of the rooms really habitable so far,” Val said as we entered, through the entryway into a small living room that, when the house was built, would have been used only on holidays and formal occasions. Now it sported a narrow bed, a rocking chair, a table doing triple work as desk, eating space and storage area. An antique wardrobe sat in one corner, drawers on the left in use even as the right side went on being stripped of multiple layers of varnish and paint, down to fine wood beneath. Sandpaper, a shallow dish and rags lay atop it.
On the wall by the table hung a gourd banjo. I ran my thumb across the strings, surprised to find they weren’t steel but soft, like a classical guitar’s.
“You really are into this.”
“I guess I am.”
She lifted down the banjo and, sitting, balanced it on her lap. Plucked a string or two, twisted pegs. Then started playing, back of the nail on her second finger striking a melody note then brushing other strings as the thumb popped on and off that short fifth string. “Soldier’s Joy.” Abruptly she stopped, putting the instrument back in place.
“Would you like tea?”
“Love it.”
We went through a double doorway without doors into the kitchen.
“Here’s my real bona fide as a southerner,” she said.
While even the living room had about it an element of improvisation, camping out or making do, the kitchen was fully equipped, pots and provisions set out on shelves, towels on drying racks, dishes stacked in cupboards, knife block on the counter by the stove. We sat at a battered wooden table waiting for water to boil.
“Funny thing is,” Val said, “I wasn’t into this, not at all, not for a long time. As a kid I couldn’t wait to get away.”
“You grow up around here?”
“Kentucky. Not a spit’s worth of difference. When I left for college, I swore that was it, I’d never look back. And I’d absolutely never ever go back. Took the two JCPenney dresses I’d worked as a waitress to buy, and some books I’d kind of forgotten to return to the library, and settled into a dorm room at Tulane. It was 1975. My Texas roommate’s debut had been attended by hundreds of people. She used most of my closet space in addition to her own—I didn’t need it. And those dresses looked as out of place, as anachronistic, as a gardenia in my hair.”
Val poured water into a round teapot.
“I was smart. That was one of two or three ways out of there. Tulane was full of rich East Coast kids who couldn’t get into Ivy League schools and poor southerners on scholarship. I lost the dresses first, the accent not long after. Most any social situation, I discovered, all you had to do was keep quiet and watch those around you. Sugar? Lemon or milk?”
I shook my head.
“By the second year you couldn’t pick me out of the crowd. ’Wearing camo,’ as a friend of mine put it. I finished near the top of my class, went to Baltimore as a junior partner, very junior, in a group practice.”
She set a mug before me, thoughtfully turned so the chip on its lip faced away.
“I don’t usually prattle on like this.”
“Not a problem.”
“Good.” Settling back at the table, she sipped her tea. “I was up there for four years—dancing with the one who brung me, as my father would say. I liked Baltimore, the firm, liked the work. And I was good at it.”
“What changed?”
“Nothing. Something. Me?” She smiled. “I wanted to, anyway. Do we ever, really?”
“Change?”
Nodding.
“If we don’t—if we