stayed up late, thanks to me and my bawling. There was so much Bird couldâve saidâwouldâve had every right to. But her not saying it, and instead staying quiet, massaging my shoulders and neck while I sobbedâit almost made me feel worse. I didnât know how long Iâd cried or how long sheâd worked her slim, strong fingers into my muscles. I just know that, for a good while, every knot she worked seemed to undo more tears.
I shuffled to the shower, every part of me wishing I didnât have to go to work. But I didnât want to stay at Birdâs either, incase the cops came. I didnât want her to feel like I was hovering around, listening. Or trying to influence her answers. And I didnât want them asking me anything else. Seeing that I was nervous. The honest truth was, she didnât have anything to tell them except that yes, weâd been here. That was what I kept telling myself. Sheâd left the house before we did, and weâd gotten back before her. So she couldnât say much. Still, Birdâs dislike of Dee was sure to come through no matter what she said.
Thinking about what weâd told them, though, I started to wonder if maybe it was too convenient, me and Dee hanging out at her place all day, without her there. Maybe we could say weâd gone out somewhere that afternoon. The movies, maybe. Somewhere.
Dee. Had he talked to the police again himself? I still hadnât heard anything from him, even after I left for work. Panic squeezed me, picturing him arrested. In trouble. Why hadnât he called? I didnât know. I needed to see him. This was just too much. Seeing him would help me know. To know that I was overreacting, making up crazy thoughts, and that thisânone of thisâwas really about that other girl.
NIKKI: They talkinâ to B 2day
NIKKI: I 4got we went 2 the movies
NIKKI: Rmembr?
NIKKI: U ok?
NIKKI: D whre r u?
NIKKI: Can u call me at work?
NIKKI: I need 2 tlk 2 u
NIKKI: D?
NIKKI: Did u tlk to them?
It took him an hour to say anything back, and I was so high strung, I nearly dropped my scissors when the phone buzzed in my apron pocket.
DEE: Breaking Hell
I was so shocked to hear from him, it took me a full minute to realize that was the name of the movie we were supposed to have seen.
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Of course the cops came later. To work. Of course they did. They talked to Bird around tenâshe texted me after they left: POLICE WAS HERE âand then they came straight over to find me, ask me to answer some more questions. It wasnât much before eleven, I donât think. They werenât wasting any time. And they wanted me to come with them to the station.
I looked at Alessia and told them I had to work. They asked me when did I get off. I said four, and they asked could I come in then. Just some more questions, they said.
But their faces were harder than theyâd been yesterday.
DETECTIVE: Miss Dougherty, weâre going to need to record this interview so we can refer to it later if we need to. Do you have any objections?
ND: No, sir.
DETECTIVE: Now, Miss Dougherty, yesterday you told police that on Friday, August twenty-third, Denarius Pavon picked you up from your place of employment, Fit to Be Curled?
ND: Yes, sir.
DETECTIVE: Can you tell us please the nature of your relationship? With Mr. Pavon?
ND: Heâs my boyfriend.
DETECTIVE: And how long have you been together?
ND: Almost a year. But we were broken up for some of that.
DETECTIVE: Broken up for how long?
ND: Six months. Maybe less.
DETECTIVE: And youâve been back together for . . . ?
ND: Since May, sir.
DETECTIVE: Three months, then. All right. Thank you, Ms. Dougherty. Now, back to the twenty-third. He told us that on that evening, he took you to pick up some beer and then got some food, and then you went to your friend Birdâs, where you were all night. Is that correct?
ND: Yes,