Pathé Pictorial, one of those delightfully exportable Technicolor furbelows full of Cotswold centenarians, and Chelsea Pensioners whoâve made the Brighton Pavilion out of matchsticks. I sat down. The lights dimmed. And onto the screen, in several shades of grey, came Waterloo Station, wrapped up by Edward Anstey and John Schlesinger in a package called âTerminusâ. Leaden-faced people milled about in the gritty air; a small boy sat on a battered trunk, and howled; queues of people moaned about trains that had left ages before, and failed to arrive. I pulled up my coatcollar. I heard the familiar dark laughter breaking out around me. And when a party of convicts appeared and shuffled into a carriage labelled: âHOME OFFICE PARTYâ, I stood up slowly, mumbled; âExcuse meâ in a deep southern accent, and left. The manager was still in the lobby.
âWhereâre you going?â he said. âYouâll miss âTerminusâ.â
âYouâre wrong,â I said. âIâve been there before. Itâs where I get off.â
He looked at me. âYou British and your sense of humour,â he said, unsmiling. âPersonally, I never went for it. But, by God, I guess you need it, huh?â
âYes,â I said. âI guess we do.â
3
Through a Glass, Darkly
T he man who owned the papershop came out onto the pavement and watched me copying down addresses from his board. He didnât say anything; he had been studying me from inside the shop for a long time; Iâd seen his eyes in the slit between the halfdrawn blind and the Coca-Cola sign.
I took down half a dozen names and numbers and closed my notebook. He stepped forward.
âExcuse me,â he said, a little hesitantly. He was a short, tubby, midfortyish negro in a pinstripe blue suit, white shirt.
âYes?â I said.
âLook buddy, maybe it ainât none of my business, but you sure â I mean, like absolutely sure â you wanna look up them addresses? What I mean is, you wanna live there?â
âThatâs right.â
âYâainât looking up for somebody else, maybe?â
âNo. For me.â
He plucked a small cigar from his breast pocket, picked a hair off it carefully, struck a match on his window, and lit up, watching me through the smokeclouds.
âWe â ell ââ he said, soft southern, rolling the word, ââ guess you know yâown mind. Good luck.â
âThanks,â I said, and would have probed him, but heâd disappeared inside the shop again, and I was left on my blasted heath wondering whether, perhaps, he couldnât have fitted me out with a quiet little country thaneship somewhere.
Nowhere, actually, could be less like a blasted heath than Harlem; it is perhaps the most undeserted area in the world, if you know what I mean. Sixlane avenues are whittled down to alleyways by the permanent overflow from the pavements, solid, sluggish streams of people, whose reasons for being there at all seem incomprehensible â they walk too slowly to be actually going from A to B; they are too far from the shops and bars to have any possible interest in them; and they never appear to cross from one side of the street to the other; instead, they roll on, as if on some enormous conveyor-belt, with no apparent purpose, and no pause. Naturally, this sort of jay-walking would be treated in downtown New York as an offence located somewhere on the books between child-rape and dope-addiction; but here, a crack regiment would be needed to enforce the laws; itâs left to the motorist to keep up a constant cacophonous alert to save himself from being devoured. Itâs an odd sensation to stand in the centre of one sidewalk looking across the slowly passing heads towards the other; the mass of humanity makes the traffic invisible, so that one seems to be cut off from the opposite bank by an open chasm filled with a
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