Chasing Lyrics (Music & Lyrics #1) Read Online Free PDF

I
have never seen him kiss a girl unless he was drunk. He begins to pull away but
I pull him back into me, which he takes as an invitation to get extra physical.
The taste of his lips makes me feel almost drunk. He looks down and says, “You
still hungry?” I bite my lip, grab his waist, and nod yes. He growls and says,
“For sushi?”
         I smile and say, “Oh. Yeah,
I guess we’d better eat something.”
         Tanner orders for us as he
normally does and our conversation is rolling, back to normal. The waitress
brings the food and our standard extra plate so we can split halves. He smiles
at me, I notice his eyes coast past me, and his facial expression turns sour. I
know somebody is here. I ask, “Who is it?”
         He looks down and says,
“What?”
         I say, “Tanner, who is
here that you know?” I turn my head and see the skank from the other night at
the bar. I look at him and roll my eyes. He reaches across the table and grabs
my hand.
         The girl walks up to our
table and says with a pouty, slutty tone, “Hey Tanner. I must have missed your
call.” She looks at me, gives me a fake smile, and says, “Oh, the best friend.”
She looks down and sees Tanner intertwining his fingers with mine and rubbing
my hand in a nervous oh fuck type of way!
         Tanner looks at her and
says, “I didn’t call. I was, uh, busy.”
         She looks at Tanner, then at
me and says, “Well, guess your friendship is over. Bad choice! Your loss.” Tanner
and I burst out in laughter as she stomps away like a pissed off, love-struck
teenager.
         Tanner works as a model sometimes,
which pays him very well. He could make a career out of it but chooses to keep
it as a means of money to support our musical dreams. We really can’t go
anywhere in Austin without girls fawning all over him. Either they love his
music or his looks… most of them love both. He’s never been in a relationship
with another girl. He says nobody could ever hold his attention for too
long…except for me. I dated a few guys for a couple of months but I would
always compare them to Tanner and not one held a candle to him. If I didn’t
leave them because of their falling short on my Tanner scale, they would leave
me because of the time I spent with Tanner. I used to think he was my
everything but the truth is that now he is my everything and I don’t know what
the hell to do about it. For the first time, it really feels like all or
nothing.
         The fact that we have
tangled our lives together really makes it all or nothing. We cannot go
backwards from here. We live in the same apartment building, I write the songs he
sings, we know everything about each other, we are each other’s past and
present. Ugh, I just need to breathe.
         On the drive home, Tanner
holds my hand in his and it sparks a memory from eight years ago. I was twenty-one
and had been saving virginity for Tanner, even though I never even whispered a
word of that to him or anybody else for that matter. I had been dating Daniel
for three months and I liked him, not loved, but he was a handsome law student
that was there for me when Tanner was out with other girls. Tanner and I went
out to a club in Beaumont and he ended up leaving with some chick that was all
over him. Of course, I acted as if I couldn’t care less, but the fact was that
I was insanely jealous, you could say I was pissed off! I called Daniel and asked
if I could come over to his place. He quickly said yes. I headed over there. I was
through waiting for Tanner. I decided that Daniel would be the one to claim my
virginity. When I got to his house, I did exactly what I set out to do. After
about two minutes, it was over. I had tears running down my cheeks, not because
it hurt but because it wasn’t love…it wasn’t Tanner. Daniel looked at me and
asked if I was okay. I nodded my head and he angrily asked, “Why are you crying
then?” I couldn’t answer him. He said,