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be runnin while your pan handlin the bowery.
    The only security is health and the ability to adjust in life.
    A flower is pretty and blooms in the light. I am the flower that blooms in the night.
    I am a flower that stands in the garden
    that waits for the bee to
    come
    I am the flower that waits until
    Spring is over and summer has come.
    When summer has gone and autumn
    is come
    I am the flower that welcomes
    the visitor knowing he never will
    come.
    Sunday June 28, 1970
    wallpaper or paint for my room.
    salt & pepper shakers
    look at color T.V. sets Sylvania
    paint for kitchen cabinets also wallpaper
    wigs.
    Now that I am attractive to men there
    isn’t a man I want.
    Most people like me
    My dear Pat,
    I must say I am most surprised at not hearing from you in such a long period of time. I am very anxious to hear from you please write immediately. You have been so good in the past always sending such long letters full of news and photographs and I have always been the tardy one. It seems so unlike you that I sometimes wonder weather you are dead or alive. Since I have no way of knowing wether or not you will ever receive this letter I will keep it brief. Do you know that I sent a long very personal letter some months ago. I am very well and will have two films coming out soon. One is called “The Bar” [called later “Some of My Best Friends Are …”]. It is a major film about homosexuals in a bar on Christmas Eve. I have a sizable part in which I am beat up and cry alot. My name in the film is Karen and I wear all pink. It was one of the most enjoyable sequences of my life making that film. I have been in The American Cinema, Vogue and right now I am in a film called Brand X which is a satire of television. My name is on the movie marquees (at last!) I will send you a photo.
    Love is a delicate spirit that loses its essence under scrutiny.
    Dear Kathy,
    So much goes on I forget to write. But my life changes so much and so quickly I’d better start telling you. Did you see me in Photoplay last month? What? You didn’t know? Yes my dear your famous cousin has finally made page 5 of our old bible. Remember how we used to pour over those movie magazines. Kathy did you ever think I’d be in one? Remember drooling over Liz & Kim hating Debbie for making Liz look so mean. Well now they can look at me page 5 January 1970. Also hold on to your hat I’m in the March issue of Vogue. Also I’m in Dec. Esquire and have a full Color page and article.
    Tonight I met a boy who wants to be my slave. He calls me goddess. Kathy I don’t think you can understand these things. You are so simple and I so jaded—not really—worldly lets say.
    You will be surprised to know that Jane Fonda’s husband Roger Vadim who was married to Brigitte Bardot is in love with me. I was out with him last night. He told me he loved me so much that he would fight a war over me. I gave him a silver ring with a turquoise. He kisses me and holds me in public because he is truly innocent and cares not what people think. I always feel I have to protect him. We have not been to bed together.
    Last night was the last night of my two week play and at the end I changed it around. I played a woman who invited her ex-family over for a re-runion. It was caled “The Re-union.” Her family did not like her because she is mad. I felt that play lacked sufficient drama and did not allow me to show everyone what I am capable of doing so because it was the last night and because Vadim was there I changed the ending. I went into a long monologue laughing, screaming, and crying. When the writer who is also the director and also works the lights saw this he turned out the the lights but I kept on even on a black stage ! Actually it wasn’t even a stage it was the back room of a bar on East 3rd St. called The Old Reliable. After the show everyone was coming over to meet Vadim. I didn’t know how to act because