flushed red.
âListen to me,â she said. âI think you need to go. Youâre strong and able-bodied. You have your whole life ahead of you. You can find work. I know itâs hard out there, but this place isnât good for a boy. Otto isnât good for you.â She wanted to say more. She wanted to tell him that she and the kids would join him, that theyâd go together, help each other out, but she wasnât ready yet. She had to think, she had to plan more. Rodney and Mary would have to be prepared, and there was still James to think about too. She wasnât sure if what she felt for him could still be called love, but it was something like it. A loyalty, a commitment. She wanted a little more time to figure all of that out.
âI donât know . . .â he said. âOtto says Iâd be a fool to leave. He says itâs like poking my finger in Godâs eye after all heâs done for me, but . . . can I tell you a secret? Just between the two of us?â
She nodded, resisting the urge she felt suddenly to kiss his mouth. How old was the boy? No more than twenty, surely. And here was Trudy nearly thirty and married. It was wrong, the kinds of thoughts she would be punished for.
âOtto scares me. He . . .â
âGo on.â
Just then Rodney woke up. âMomma?â
She turned and gathered him in her arms. When she turned back to face Simpson again, heâd already started back to the clearing.
âLeave,â she said, but she wasnât sure if he heard her.
11
âWho was that old man?â Rodney said as they walked hand in hand back toward the clearing.
âHis name was G.L.,â she whispered. âHe was very old.â
Rodney nodded. âI want to see the swamp.â
There was something about the way he said itâthe matter-of-fact tone, the way his small, soft voice brooked no argument about the placeâs existenceâthat frightened Trudy a little. Frightened and also thrilled her.
âMe too,â she said and kissed his forehead.
12
By the time she returned to the clearing with Rodney, the crowd had already gathered behind the oak tree. For as long as she could remember, the area just behind the tree had been a massive tangle of underbrush and layered kudzu. It was so thick and dark that the task of removing it had always seemed too daunting, and the community had settled for just cutting it back when it seemed to encroach upon the clearing.
Now a crowd of people watched as G.L. tore the vines away by hand, ignoring the sharp briars that made his hands bleed. He was sweating heavily and swaying from side to side, clearly about to pass out. Yet no one moved to help him.
Trudy stood beside James. âWhatâs happening?â
James shrugged. âOld coot says thereâs a swamp under that mess.â
âAnd weâre going to stand by while he kills himself trying to get to it?â
âIâve tried to speak reason to him, Trudy.â She craned her neck to see Otto standing on the other side of James. âHeâs clearly not well.â
âClearly,â Trudy said. She stepped forward and put a hand on his back. âMr. G.L.?â
He stopped and turned around. His mouth opened into a slack grin.
âWhy donât you take a break?â
âNo, maâam. I donât have long. I want to see the swamp again before I go.â
Trudy couldnât say whyâmaybe it was because of the conversation sheâd just had with Rodney, or maybe it was because the old man, in an odd way, reminded her of her sonâbut she felt the urge to help him.
So she did. She dug into the vines and pulled an armful away.
âTrudy,â Otto warned, âthis is not the work of the Lord.â
Trudy ignored him and kept pulling vines. In fact, she increased her speed, working steadily until she too was sweating.
There were murmurs from the crowd, and