Marc and Jeanne.”
“Yes. Well, she talked to me that night and it made me think. I think I really want to try that lifestyle but I’m concerned about your feelings; especially now with our trust issue.”
“You already told me that...”
“I didn’t tell you everything. There’s one particular scenario that really... turn me on.”
She paused and blushed. She wanted to look at Bruce but she couldn’t. She felt incredibly shy and embarrassed to even admit it in front of him.
“Say it,” Bruce said. “What is it?”
“Bruce, don’t be mad please. We’re just talking. It doesn’t mean that I absolutely want to do it but I want you to know. No more secrets, right?”
“Right. Just tell me, I’ll handle it. If it’s just in your head, I can deal with it.”
“I’m obsessed with threesomes... I’ve been fantasizing about that particular situation for a long time now, but I couldn’t tell you.”
“What kind of threesomes?”
“Well... I think you know. I’d like to be taken care of, just like Jeanne the other night.”
“By two men?”
Jennifer cleared her throat and with a little voice, she said, “Yes... two men. You and another person.”
Bruce kept silent but he was breathing heavily. She immediately regretted. It was so stupid, she thought. Bruce would never accept and it would create another problem.
“It’s just a fantasy, Bruce. And it’s meant to stay a fantasy. I don’t want you to think that my goal is to take action...”
Bruce said nothing.
“Are you mad at me? Are you shocked? Are you disgusted or disappointed? Say something, please.”
“I’m a bit surprised, to be honest. But I’m not really upset. I guess it’s not as bad as knowing that you had an affair with another man.”
“Aw Bruce... You’re the only one in my life and in my heart. I belong to you. We can forget about it now that I’ve told you. I’m not hiding anything from you. My intention was to let you know that I have this kind of thoughts...”
“Thank you, Jen. I didn’t expect you to be that honest with me, though. You can have secrets, as long as it doesn’t hurt me.”
“I know but I don’t want to live that way. I had to tell you. My sexual life is also your sexual life...”
“Okay, Jen. I’ll think about it.”
Jennifer was speechless. What was he talking about?
“What? No, you don’t have to!”
“Jen, if we don’t confront it now, it’s going to be a bigger problem down the road.”
“No, it won’t.”
“You already felt the need to satisfy your desires with Enzo and you could barely resist him. Who knows what you can do in the future, if you feel that desire again? It would be even worse. You’d betray me with not just one, but two men and I don’t want it to happen.”
“Bruce, I won’t do that...”
“Jen, this is my decision and I’ll think about it. We’ll see what we can do about this fantasy of yours.”
“Really? Are you sure?”
“Yes, I am. Now, let’s go back to the yacht.”
Chapter Five
L ater that night, Bruce moved in again with Jennifer. It felt good to know that he would be next to her at night. The yacht was really big and felt empty when he wasn’t around. They could finally enjoy the rest of their honeymoon together and hopefully, there wouldn’t be any more drama.
Jennifer now felt peaceful and relaxed. The last few days had been tough and had challenged her. First of all, she felt relieved about her business. This trip abroad had allowed her to gain new perspectives and reconsider her previous dreams.
Jennifer was now much more mature and experienced. She wasn’t the innocent secretary she used to be and New York didn’t seem so overwhelming anymore. Her lifestyle and her ambitions were not what they were at the beginning, and Jennifer had forgotten to adjust her goals.
Her cooking school dream wasn’t based on reality. It had always been something unclear and distant in the future, something that she had romanticized