Blue Blue Eyes: Crime Novel Read Online Free PDF

mean that it’s over?” His cheeks went red and he got really angry. ”How the hell did you have the guts to follow me here when you knew your intentions?”
    Nikki didn’t know what to reply but felt deeply ashamed. She didn’t know if it had been pure selfishness on her side to escape the workplace or if it was to have some last wonderful memories with Patrik. She actually didn’t know but Nikki could really understand his uneasy feeling.
    ”I am sorry. I wanted us to spend a few days together without having to do it in secret as always. I am sorry.” Nikki got up so suddenly that her chair turned over. The waiter quickly arrived and put it back in its place but she went to Patrik and crouched in front of him. ”You have to view it from my side as well. You have it all already. I’ve been single for many years with Axel and Gustav. I don’t want it to be this way anymore. I am 46 years old and haven’t dared let a single man into my life since Stefan. It’s about time I changed this pattern now.”
    Patrik didn’t want to understand. He thought that he had found the perfect solution. ”When we land at Landvetter and I’ve dropped you off at the Aveny, we’ll not meet anymore?”
    ”Of course we’ll meet, but under different circumstances. What we’ve had has been wonderful but I need to go forward. Turn the tables. How would you have enjoyed being the other man?” Nikki stood up and returned to her seat on wobbly legs. She emptied her glass and felt how tired she was. The alcohol was affecting her more than she wished.
    ”I don’t know. I’ve never thought about it in that way.” With pressed lips Patrik grabbed her hand and squeezed it hard. They were both quiet for a while before Nikki continued:
    ”You should concentrate all your energy on Linn. She has to get the care she needs. At least for the sake of the kids. And for her of course, or rather for both of you.”
    ”Thanks a lot for giving me a bad conscience” Patrik spat and fixed his gaze on the star-filled heaven.

1975
    The brothers, eight and ten years old respectively, looked at each-other with surprise and looked worriedly at their mother.
    ”But how will you get into the boat when we go fishing?” The younger brother wrinkled his freckled nose and looked like a living question mark.
    ”Boys, you’ll have to go fishing with Daddy from now on.” The brothers looked at each-other with open mouths.
    ”So you mean you’ll never go fishing again?”
    The mother sadly shook her head and tied her scarf to hide the thin hair.
    ”Daddy will go with you instead. Come on now, let me have a rest and then I’ll prepare you some rhubarb compote. ”
    It was the summer of 1975 when everything changed. The boys had to experience living with a mother who got more and more pain in her joints. She tried her best to keep it up in the presence of the boys but the kids were not stupid, they could figure it out and first and foremost they could see how she was hurting. But it wasn’t only the mother changing, something happened with the boys’ father as well. His look became deeper and the colour of his soul went black. The evil eye came to life during this summer.
    The little brother pretended to be sleeping when the father stealthily came into the boys’ room on the second floor that star-filled night in June. The first time he didn’t understand what was happening and nicely waited for his turn in the bed. To be on your own with Daddy, could it get any better? The little eight-year old longingly had been thinking. Then little brothers chin had been shaking as he was lying there in his narrow, hard bed, alone and scared of the dark.
    He didn’t understand why his stomach was like a hard knot and why his chest felt like lead. He didn’t quite know either what the father was doing with his big brother in the nights, but he had heard the sound. The moaning painful howls which were dampened by a sock in his mouth. Little brother closed his