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Soph”
    “He saved your life Brooke”
    “Yeah so he could tick another box on his list” I practically growl at her.
    “That’s not the reason he did it and you know it” she says while rubbing my arm.
    “I never would have been in that position if it wasn’t for him in the first place” I tell her getting both her and Matt’s full attention
    “What do you mean?” Matt asks looking slightly sick.
    “Remember that night I came back to the dorm after Beth slapped me and I stormed out?” They both nod silently “Well I went to my mom’s house and woke them all up by banging on the door. My mom answered and I barged in there to wind him up, but she went for me so I elbowed her. and then he came after me which is what I wanted and then I just lost it and attacked him. He tried tackling me but I moved and he fell into my mom and they both fell down, I grabbed a lamp and attacked him. I attacked him Soph and I couldn’t stop, he was bleeding out and I carried on. The only reason I stopped was because Phin was there and called my name. After that I knew he would try to kill me” I take a deep breath pushing back the memories of the night and trying to hold back the tears. “The point is, that if Tucker hadn’t hurt me in the first place, I never would have gone back there again”
    “He never meant to hurt you Brooke” Sophie says softly to me.
    “No so what about humiliating me, accusing me of cheating on him, using my past against me in an argument and calling me a whore. In front of everyone we knew? Because to me that isn’t something you do to someone you care about”
    “He was hurt Brooke” Matt insists.
    I snort “Yeah, so was I” I feel a stubborn tear roll down my cheek and quickly wipe it away. I remembered the look on his face when we were arguing. The hurtful things he said to me all come back at once as it if was happening now.
    I’m not even all that surprised…
    I should have known from the beginning…
    Play the abused quiet girl …
    Making me care for you and then what, what is this? Some sort of twisted lesson you are attempting to teach me? …
    Getting me back for all the girls that I slept with and never bothered with again? ...
    Is that it …
    Do you want to know why I did it? …
    I had never been with a virgin before, you were just something to cross off a list…
    Because you’re a whore?...
    I squeeze my eyes closed and breathe through the pain of my heart breaking all over again. The tears won’t stop coming. I shake my head to try and clear it as I push the memories back.
    “He loved you Brooke” Sophie whispers adamantly.
    “No!” I shout at her, not caring who’s watching us anymore. “Two years Soph!” I practically scream at her as I push my chair back roughly and stand up. “Two fucking years, that’s how long it’s been and do you know how I got through it? By not thinking about it!”
    “Brooke, sorry, just pretend I never said anything” She says starting to stand.
    “Forget it” I shake my head “I know exactly how to end this”
    I clean myself up in the bathroom and take the time to calm down.
    I just need to take my mind off it and the pain will fade away just like always.
    Running a few ideas through in my head, I take my place behind the bar.
    “Everything okay Brooke? You look pissed and not the type you should be, considering it’s your birthday” Will asks putting a protective arm around my shoulders.
    “I’ll be fine” I assure him patting his arm.
    “What you doing behind the bar on your birthday anyway, don’t even attempt to try and work tonight” he scolds making me giggle.
    “I was thinking about providing some entertainment actually” I wink up at him.
    “Just be careful” he says as he walks back into his office leaving me stood behind the bar watching the crowd.
    I mess about behind the bar and flirt with a few customers. I smile reassuringly at the curious glances from Lucy and Jess. I completely ignore Mel not able