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barks at Greg making Greg laugh.
    “You’re lucky to be breathing, don’t push it.”
    “Martha come back here!” he shouts after me.
    “Trey, we are done.” I shout back, slamming the door to the prison he wants to keep his wife in.
     
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    I give sex on my terms; Greg has been my only lover since the assault but that is all on my terms. I don’t know how I would cope with an aggressive partner sexually after everything and this worried me about Jenson. Damn it, my thoughts always return to him. I wasn’t even fit to walk the pavement he steps on, let alone be his lover, woman… His wife.
    God why was I even thinking about this stuff? He was so far from my reach. Investing in memories or what could have been is pointless and heart breaking. Beneath Innocence were bigger than ever. He would have his pick of groupies to fuck every night and his select of starlets wanting to be the prize on his arm. I could have never been a prize on his arm.  Life liked to play with my soul because just as I’m planning on forcing myself to stop thinking about him one of their hits comes over the radio.
     
    Darkness is all I am, all I see since she left me, she left me.
    Twisted, damaged, broken, I’m all three,
    a mangled mess of misery .
    Hit me baby, shoot me dead.
    I’m bleeding baby you’re in my head.
     
    You misused me, baby.
    Took my love and gave none of your own.
    All I wanted was the same love I had shown.
    You own me baby, you had me,
    You threw me away to drown in your blue sea.
    I wanted to give you everything, my love was free.
    Come back baby come back to me.
     
    I’m tethered to you, I’m bound baby.
    The thread is thinning on me,
    And I’m holding on so delicately.
    Don’t leave me, don’t leave baby
     
    Don’t go baby, just hold on.
    I’m too weak and the love too strong.
    I’m suffering, with you I feel every ache
    You left me drowning baby, gasping in your wake.
     
    You misused me, baby.
    Took my love and gave none of your own.
    All I wanted was the same love I had shown.
    You own me baby, you had me.
    You threw me away in your suffering.
    I wanted to give you everything, my love was free
    Come back baby come back to me.
     
    Darkness is all I am, all I see since she left me, she left me.
    Twisted, damaged, broken, I’m all three,
    a mangled mess of misery.
    Hit me baby, shoot me dead
    I’m bleeding baby, you’re in my head.
     
    “Oh shit, did he hurt you before I got there?” Greg’s voice cancels out Jenson’s deep penetrating crooning. It’s only then that I feel the moist licks dripping down my face. I was crying for the first time in a long time.
    “Killing them was not the end. Sometimes there are no solutions and goodbye is the only way.” I croak and he pulls over.
    “What the hell does that mean?”
    “I want to go home, it’s been a weird day.”
    “Are you sure? I thought we could go back to mine?” He grins. He’s cute, the mousy brown hair is messy all over his head, he has a few scars on his face from fighting over the years but they gave him character. He had full lips and a nice smile. “I just want to go to sleep.”
    “Okay.”

Chapter seven
     

Fracture
     
     
Blue
     
     
     
    I can’t force myself to get up. It’s been a week since Trey showed his intentions and Dad’s whore bitched me out when she learned I broke it of with him. Like I needed her opinion on anything let alone my love life or lack thereof.
    Something heavy lands on my bed, awakening me from a dreamless sleep which was rare, so my mood is straight to pissed. Throwing the covers back I glare at Greg standing at the base of my bed. “I’m sleeping.”
    “You look awake to me.” He grins.
    “I bought you something’s to make you feel better.”  He points to the bag he had thrown on the bed. 
    “Bringing me gifts now? Next you’ll want to cuddle.” I chide him. He looks a little embarrassed and tries to laugh but it’s humorless.
    I reach for the bag and look inside;