you.”
Julie
could hear Becky holding onto her tears by a thread. Her voice was so
shaky.
“ It's
probably nothing, but I'm on my way.”
“ No,
I don't want to interrupt your work. I can wait until later. I just
wanted to mention it to you.”
“ It's
fine. I am leaving right now. I should be there in fifteen minutes.
Just keep your feet up and rest.”
“ Thank
you, Julie. I'm so sorry for bothering you.”
“ You're
not bothering me. You're my sister. I'm glad you called.”
Julie
hung up the phone and let her staff know she was leaving early. She
had another doctor working that day and was glad he could cover the
rest of the patients. As Julie drove to Becky's, she tried to think
the most positive thoughts she could. Becky was twelve weeks along,
but that didn't mean she was completely in the clear. If anything was
wrong, Julie knew there was nothing that could be done. She just kept
thinking, let everything be okay.
Julie
called Becky's doctor on her way over to let them know she was going
to bring her in. He was a great doctor Julie knew from college. When
she got there, she knew to keep her emotions in check for Becky. As
soon as she walked into the house, she had Becky get her shoes on and
they were on their way.
“ Should
we call Gavin and let him know you're going to the doctor?”
Julie asked.
“ No,
their flight left a few minutes ago. They will be home in a few
hours. I don't want to worry him for nothing. Thank you for being
here with me,” Becky said.
“ I
will always be here for you. How could I not love the woman who puts
up with my brother?”
When
they got to the doctor, they had Becky go back to a room right away.
The doctor came in and said hello to both of them and asked Becky an
assortment of questions. He let her know that he was going to have an
ultrasound done and took her to a different room. She put her head
back on the bed and let out a huge breath.
“ Everything's
going to be okay. They need to see if there is a reason for what you
are feeling. I will be here with you the whole time.”
“ I
just want everything to be okay. Gavin would be devastated if
anything happened and so would I. Thank you for being here. You have
no idea how much that means to me. I know you are used to all of
this, but it kind of freaks me out.”
The
nurse walked in and got everything ready. They were doing the
ultrasound and Julie would not move her eyes from the screen. It was
not going to be good news. She had been in this situation at the
hospital, and that was hard enough. How do you deal with it when it's
your own family? Julie held her emotions together and did everything
she could not to let Becky see the sadness she was feeling. It had to
come from the doctor's mouth.
The
nurse took them back into the exam room, and they waited for the
doctor. Julie held Becky's hand and sat next to her. When the doctor
walked in, he exchanged a knowing look with Julie. She nodded her
head slightly and put her arm around Becky. As the doctor told Becky
everything he needed to, Julie felt her own emotions rush to the
surface. She pulled Becky closer as they both cried together over the
loss that filled the room. The doctor continued to speak about what
he felt needed to happen next. He wanted to do a procedure to get rid
of what was left in her body from the pregnancy. Julie told the
doctor that she did not want him to do it. He agreed to let Becky's
body have two weeks to take care of it on its own. If it didn't, then
he would do the procedure. He left them alone after telling Becky how
sorry he was and that she should not let it discourage her from
trying again.
Becky
and Julie stayed in the room for a little while. They cried and
talked. Julie let her know that there was nothing she could have done
differently. It was not anyone's fault that it happened. She assured
her that it happened often to people. It just meant that something
was not okay with the baby. Julie let her know that she could
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