that is something I can respect about him.
I let the words linger around us for a moment, speaking right before that uncomfortable silence settles in. “I love trouble.” He leans back in his chair.
“Then you are my type of girl. Plus, you are the first girl I found that actually dresses normal in this backwards hick town. Most of the girls I have met wear polo shirts and these huge freaking bows in their hair, what’s up with that?” I shrug, not really sure what jack ass came up with that idea.
“That’s me, just a normal girl who likes getting into trouble and reading the classics like this in my spare time.” He takes the huge telephone sized book next to me and I get a glimpse of the title War and Peace. Eeeek !
“Can I ask you something?” I change the subject before he starts questioning me on the dictionary in his hand.
“Anything, I am an open book.” He bites on the sliver ring on his lip.
“You moved from New York to Phenix City?” He cocks his brow and bobs his head yes. “Umm… Why?” I ask.
“My mom got remarried and we had to relocate because her ass-hat of a husband got transferred to Alabama. Thankfully, I only have one year left of school before I can get the hell out of this shitty little backwoods town and back to where our own kind is accepted.” He winks at me and I give him my best flirty smile. I feel the same way. Maybe when I leave I’ll l go to New York. I never thought about where I was going as long as I was just gone.
“So, Barbie.” I like the way he says my name, like he is savoring it in his mouth. “So when you are not reading the classics, what kind of trouble do you like to get into?” he asks.
“I used to do quite a bit, now I try to just stick with the classics,” I lie. He nods and sets the book down next to me. I scoop it back up. “I was thinking about checking this one out. I heard it was a good one.” I shake the book in front of me, which is quite a feat, seeing that the thing weighs as much as a basket of bricks. He takes my wrist into his hand and wraps his long, cool fingers completely around my wrist. Butterflies flutter in my stomachs.
“Loving with human love, one may pass from love to hatred; but divine love cannot change. Nothing, not even death, can shatter it. It is the very nature of the soul. And how many people I have hated in my life. And of all people none I have loved and hated more than her…” He cocks a dark eyebrow at me. His words send a shiver down my back.
“It is my favorite quote from War and Peace . What is yours?” Shit. I’m caught; I have never read a classic before, and maybe it is not even a classic. What the hell do I know about books, except they are filled with other people’s words?
My stomach tightens as his eyes take in my face. “I like all of them.” I smile.
“You want to get out of here?” he asks. I just met him and it is probably not smart for me to go with a stranger, but there might be a chance that he can help me forget about Dylan or at least, he might numb this whirlwind of emotion that is traveling through me. I nod. He drops the book with a loud thud and slips his long fingers into mine before pulling me towards the library doors.
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Later that night, when I no longer have Kai to distract my thoughts, I lie in bed, listening to the sounds of Mrs. Knight tucking in Everett. The soft sounds of good nights drift under my door and I suddenly cannot take it anymore. No matter how happy I am for Everett, the Brady Bunch, fake shit that they pull makes me feel physically ill. No one can be this happy. Parents can’t really give that much of a shit about what happens to their kids during the day and especially ones that are not their own.
I stand up, no longer able to tolerate the feeling of my own skin. I pace the room before I push open the window. I look down at the ground below; it’s not that far of a drop. I can probably make it to that tree branch and get down safely. Who
Ian Marter, British Broadcasting Corporation