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of his eyes. I can’t stop looking at her, leering even, as she stands there in some barely-there outfit that reminds me of Lucy’s before-pregnancy outfits.
    “Fuck,” I mutter and Coley looks at me, confusion morphs into sorrow. “No,” I tell her, taking her hand. “No. You’re beautiful.” I can’t let her think anything other than the truth. I don’t need her to think she’s not breathtaking, because she is that and so much more. Her eyes meet mine and I see the want I feel reflected in her eyes. No.
    Reluctantly I let her hand go.
    “Thank you,” she tells me with a smile and I nod before turning away. I walk over and grab a Gatorade. I need to stop this. She can’t be mine. I let anger fill me. This is what I need. If I stay angry, I won’t feel all the things for her I shouldn’t.
    “We’re on,” Sera announces. Sera. I thought for a while there she might be the one, but it didn’t take long to figure out we weren’t anything more than friends. We shared a couple kisses and they were fucking amazing, but I didn’t feel her deep down like I do Coley and she didn’t feel me that way either. For her it was Cage. It was easy to see every time they were in the same room together.
    Blush has come so far in such a short time. It’s like overnight stardom and we had nothing to do with that. It had everything to do with their talent.
    Oh fuck, they have Coley dancing on a platform in her skin-tight pink outfit and fuck me heels. I reach down and adjust my erection. Just a couple strokes of my cock and I’d come. Just from watching her. I’m so pathetic.
    The way her hips swivel and sway, her tits bouncing as she dances. I groan inwardly. I need to fuck and I need to fuck hard. I’ll pick someone tonight to get off. I don’t give a fuck who she is but I’m going to make damn sure she’s got red hair because I know even though I’ll be fucking a stranger, it’ll be Coley’s face I’m seeing.

    When they come off the stage, the crowd is going wild. Everyone’s hyped up and sweaty.
    “Thirsty,” Meggie announces, giving a quick wave and heading to the refreshment bar. Trace follows closely behind.
    “I could use a drink,” Jace says.
    “A big bottle of Powerade,” Meggie says, her voice becoming more faint with each step she takes away from us.
    “That was one hell of a show,” I tell them.
    “Fuck yeah, it was,” Xan agrees. “I’m still hard.”
    Lucy rolls her eyes and Sera pinches his ass.
    “Watch yourself, Fee,” warns a deep voice from behind us. Sera spins around, the biggest grin on her face I’ve ever seen. Then she shoves me to the side and jumps up onto Cage.
    “Batman! Where’ve you been?” she asks, her lips against his, and he chuckles.
    “Fee,” he breathes and kisses her softly. Damn.
    I look away and watch as Blush’s instruments are taken off the stage and replaced by ours. I miss the duets Jesse and Lucy had going on so it was a smoother transition between our sets, but since Burners joined us we’ve cut that out. Jesse vetoed Lucy singing with Lucian, and so a change was made. I don’t care, really. I just want to play. Fuck yeah. This, music, it’s everything. The feeling of being able to get people to feel what we feel when we make and play the music—nothing beats that. Nothing.
    It seems like we wait forever to take the stage, but with the setup Blush and we have, it’s a lot to take down and put up. We’ve got some kick ass roadies and I fucking love it. Just a few more minutes.
    Lucian comes walking up.
    “Good set man,” I tell him, shaking his hand, pushing down everything but my appreciation for his music.
    “Thanks. Our sound guy doesn’t have things set up the way I want them to be,” he says, his frustration clear.
    Coley strolls up, wiping her brow with a towel.
    “Hey, BB,” Lucian greets and I grit my teeth.
    “Hey,” she says back, giving him a grin. “Your soundboard dude is slacking.”
    Lucian raises a brow and so do