how you were after the accident. Iâd hate to see you backslide after all this time.â
His friend meant well, but he didnât understand. âI canât turn her away. I owe her.â
âSo youâre looking at this as some kind of atonement? It was an accident.â
âWas it?â Shaw faced the side window. Was it an accident, or had he been negligent? Only the Lord knew for sure. He had relived the events leading up to that moment a thousand times, but had never found an answer that satisfied him. He doubted he ever would.
* * *
Lainie tucked the covers around her girls then bent to kiss them good-night. They looked so small in the big iron bed. They were her whole life and the reason sheâd gone back to school to get her degree in library science. More than anything, she wanted to give them a real home, a place with roots and tradition. Because of her fatherâs job, Lainie had grown up moving from one place to another, always the new kid with few friends and fewer ties. She wanted better for her girls, and Dover was the perfect place. Or so sheâd believed until today.
âMommy, I want to live in this castle forever.â Chrissy held up her glasses and Lainie laid them on the nightstand.
Natalie rolled her eyes. âItâs not a castle, silly. Itâs only a house. Weâre staying for a few days, then weâll find us a house of our own.â She smoothed back Natalieâs hair, her heart swelling with love.
âBut I like this house.â Natalie rolled onto her side. âWill our next house have trees in the yard?â
Chrissy sat up. âCan we get a dog? With polka spots like Beaux?â
âPolka
dots
. Weâll see.â Lainie gently pressed her youngest down into the covers. âNow go to sleep.â
Lainie laid the girlsâ clothes on the window seat, taking a quick glance into the darkness. The moon was full, casting a stream of light across the wide yard and making the leaves sparkle. She had to agree with her girls. She liked the house, too. The window seat was cozy and inviting. She could imagine her daughters cuddled up reading or watching the rain. Despite its quirky appearance, there was a homey feel to the house. Too bad it belonged to Shaw McKinney.
Downstairs, Lainie set about cleaning up the kitchen, her emotions playing tug-of-war between gratitude to Shaw for a place to stay and irritation that she was indebted to the man whoâd made her a widow. She tried to ignore the twinge of remorse that rose up. Shaw had done all he could to make them comfortable, including closing the hole in the wall to ensure their privacy. Though sheâd had to tack an old curtain sheâd found in the closet over the glass panes.
Heâd thought of everything. Too bad he hadnât done that five years ago.
The silence in the old house suddenly pressed in on her, unleashing the loneliness that always lurked in the recesses of her mind. Sheâd been a widow longer than sheâd been a wife. Sheâd done the best she could the past five years, and the Lord had taken care of her and her sweet babies. Heâd provided a home with her mother, then a home and a job with Mrs. Forsythe after Lainieâs mom had died. But there were times she ached for someone special in her life, someone to lift the load for a moment or two.
Sheâd known that feeling for a brief second today when Shaw had kept her from falling. Until she had remembered who was holding her and what heâd done. Determined to overcome her depressing thoughts, she walked into the living room and picked up the toys scattered in the rounded corner, which was now the new Princess Club. As she passed the sofa, she noticed the cell phone Shaw had bought for her resting on the end table.
As much as she hated to admit it, Shaw was not what sheâd expected. Craig had complained that Shaw was an arrogant bully, who strutted around the job as if he