anything for Phoebe.
Almost anything, I should say. âOf course Iâll help you,â I said. âBut
before we start, I must make one thing very clear. I know what youâre thinking, and the answer is no.â
Her eyes widened innocently. âWhat? What are you talking about?â
âYouâre hoping Iâll marry one of them myself.â
Phoebe laughed, not at all guilty. âWhy not? Youâve loved them both since you were tiny.â
âTheyâre like my brothers.â
âNot any more. It wouldnât take much for you to fall for one of them properly.â
âSorry, but I would have done it by now.â
âIâd be so happy to know they were with you!â
âI couldnât marry both of them, anyway,â I pointed out. âWhy donât you advertise for a nanny?â
Her optimism wavered. I softened my tone. âSorry, but Iâm spoken for.â
âMatthew.â Phoebe had met Matthew several times. I had taken him to Sunday lunch at the Darlingsâ, on a day when I knew there would other people present to take some of the blame for the inevitable smoking and swearing.
âYes,â I said.
âSo you think Matthew is the one.â
Hadnât I told her this? âYes,â I said again.
âI didnât realize heâd proposed.â
âWell, not proposed exactly. Not in so many words.â This was a sore point. Matthew talked about marriage, but very distantly. It always seemed to be part of his ongoing fantasy about picking up a tip from a client, making a huge killing on the market and retiring at thirty-five. He had said he loved me, but not oftenânot nearly as often as I wanted to hear it. And he had never said, in so many words, that it was actually me he wanted to marry.
âSo youâre not engaged yet?â (She was as bad as Betsyâthis obsession with having it all official.)
âNot officially,â I said. âWe havenât set a date.â
âOh well,â Phoebe said. âIâm a bit disappointed for the boys, but Matthew struck me as terribly nice. His lovely begonia is still a mass of blossoms.â
I laughed at that. I liked the way Phoebe coupled people with the plants they gave her.
And as soon as I had laughed, I could have cried. Matthew had to ask me soon. I wanted Phoebe to see us married.
Phoebeâs mind had moved back to the âproblemâ of her boys. She reached for a notebook and pen on the little table beside her. âI thought weâd start by making a list of all their best qualities.â
âTheir selling points,â I suggested, trying to keep a straight face. This wasnât going to be a long list, so the new notebook was a bit superfluous. Oh God, had she bought it specially, thinking it would make us more businesslike? Jimmy would have howled.
âThatâs right,â Phoebe said happily.
âOkay.â I realized she was waiting for me to say something. âShall we start with Fritz?â
âGood ideaâI knew I was right to enlist you.â Beaming, Phoebe scribbled in her notebook, muttering the words as she went. âFrederick James Darlingâwidely known as Fritzâage thirty-oneâprofessional actor.â
Her pen hovered. She was quiet. Unkindly, I didnât fill in the silence. I wanted her to see that there was precious little left to say, as far as selling points were concerned.
âLovely singing voice,â she added.
Another stretch of silence.
âAbsolutely sweet to his mother.â
I let out a snort of laughter. âWhat a catch!â
Phoebe asked, âDonât I make him sound good enough?â
âIf anything,â I said, âyouâre talking him up too much. âProfessional actorâ might make some poor girl think heâs had a decent job.â
Her candid brown eyes were reproachful. âWe wonât get very far if you
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