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barely-there, dark peach fuzz mustaches that they refused to shave. I think that’s when I started clinging to Addy for help in putting myself together. She has made sure that even though we can’t share clothes, that I at least have clothes that fit my body the right way. Half the time I still don’t know what I’m doing when I get dressed, but sometimes I hit the mark. Addy insisted on packing for me this summer. With Cal at my side, now I know why.
    “Ok ay, Kinley, now’s your chance,” Addison says to me from across the table in a loud whisper. “Miller is alone. Go talk to him for me.”
    “Miller’s been alone this whole time,” Pete says sarcastically. “Why are you so into him anyway? He doesn’t fit your usual type. It’s the tattoos, isn’t it? I gotta get a tattoo.”
    “I’ve never been with a guy who’s all tatted up like that before. It’s totally hot.” Addison makes this sexy face and I want to kick her under the table. It’s one thing to talk about looking and being slutty with the girls in her room , it’s another thing to come across like a total slut in front of everyone. She’s a really kind and generous person and I don’t like the idea of that not being what people immediately see in her.
    “Now?” I look at her with strong eyes, trying to tell her that I’m not quite ready to leave my seat – the one with Cal’s arm resting on the back – to go set up her booty call.
    “Yes. Now. Please?” she says.
    “I’m gonna run back to The Lodge and make sure the beverages are all set for the bonfire,” Cal says. “I’ll catch you later, everyone. See you tonight?” he says to me.
    “Definitely.”
    Cal pushes his chair out and clears his dishes.
    I breathe a heavy sigh and shoot daggers at Addison.
    “What?” she says obliviously.
    “What? Really? I was pretty cozy here with Cal and you cut that off just so I could do your dirty work for you!” I shout in a whisper to her across the table.
    “You already have your guy! If you don’t help me with Miller I won’t have a guy for the summer!” she whines.
    “You are a walking contradiction. In one breath you’re talking about making it so easy for guys to know you’re available, and in the next you’re putting on your own show of girls-don’t-chase-after-boys. If you’re so available, why don’t you just go talk to him yourself?”
    “What’s gotten into you?” she says. I’m not sure that I’ve ever confronted and chastised Addy for this behavior before, but then again, I’ve never had anything better to occupy my time. “ One guy finally likes you and all of the sudden you’re too good to help your sister?”
    “Hey! You’re the one who told me to be open to him!” I counter. “And that’s really mean!”
    “Just … Kinley, please. Please go over there. I’m not asking you to do anything you haven’t done before. I’m sorry I was so bitchy. Please?” Addy looks at me with her begging blue eyes and once again I fall right into my role. It’s hard to resist her, and, really, I just want her to be happy. If she thinks Miller will make her happy, even for the summer, how can I deny her that? One day she’ll grow up and will have no more wild oats to sow. Until then, this is just Addy.
    “Fine. But you owe me a better apology than that sorry -ass one you threw in there,” I tell her.
    “I’m sorry , Kin.” Addy gets up from her seat across from me and moves around the table to the seat where Cal had been sitting. “You’re my sister and I love you and I couldn’t be happier that Cal is into you. You looked pretty comfortable with him, so I guess you were just doing what I made you promise you’d do. Forgive me?”
    I sigh , knowing that Addison is the only person in the world I can’t stay mad at. “Of course.” We hug and I know Addy is looking over my shoulder to see if Miller is still there. She doesn’t say he’s gone so I can assume he’s still there with his nose in his