the esky between the seats.
I nod and attempt a smile
before pushing off.
We paddle across the lake
and the wind is so loud
itâs impossible to talk.
Iâm grateful.
Left alone
When I get home
I find a note on the table.
Mum has drawn a heart
on a piece of paper
with red nail polish.
There are no words.
I fall asleep on the lounge,
just like Dad does,
only without the encouragement of beer.
The wind slams the screen door
and wakes me in darkness.
I shuffle to my bedroom
and pull my blankets up high.
Every teenagerâs dream
is to be left alone
with the run of the house.
I remember the day
Mum and Dad paid off their mortgage.
Dad brought home a bottle of champagne
and they pretended to enjoy it
before switching to beer.
Dad helped me do the dishes,
while Mum played country music
and threatened to dance us
around the lounge room.
The next day Dad told us
one of his regular customers
had gone out of business,
the truck needed an overhaul
and the only way to pay for it
was another loan.
I wriggle further under my blankets.
I havenât seen my parents smile since.
The fundamentals of grammar
Monday in English,
I arrive too early
to find Ella reading a paperback
in an empty classroom.
I study Mrs Sutcliffeâs handwriting
on the whiteboard:
The differences between an adverb and verb .
Even in year ten
weâre still learning â
or not learning â
the fundamentals of grammar.
âElla reads quietly,â I say.
Ella looks up. âPardon?â
I feel the heat rush to my cheeks.
âI was thinking of adverbs and verbs.â
I point to the whiteboard.
â Reads is the verb, quietly is the adverb.â
I should have written nerd
across my forehead in texta.
âNow Iâll jump out the window,â I mutter.
Ella smiles imperceptibly.
âElla smiles imperceptibly,â I say.
Ellaâs smile broadens.
âEllaââ
âJonah!â Manx thunders into the room.
âTrust you to be early for English.â
He tosses his bag on the desk
and swings his leg over the chair.
âDid Sutcliffe give us homework?â
I glance back at Ella.
Sheâs engrossed in her book.
Or pretending to be.
Tequila
Mrs Sutcliffe starts the period
by announcing weâre going to read,
âThe greatest book ever writtenâ.
Manx groans and says,
âAnything but the Bible.â
Rachel makes the sign of the cross.
âSave me,â she cries.
Everyone laughs.
âItâs called To Kill a Mockingbird ,â says Sutcliffe.
âTequila Mockingbird?â asks Angelo,
leaning across his desk
to slap Patrick on the back.
Patrick jumps up from his chair
and threatens to punch Angelo.
His face is red, fists raised
and heâs shaking in rage.
Angelo slinks down in his chair.
âItâs a joke, Patrick,â I say.
His eyes cloud over
as if he were somewhere else.
âSit down, Patrick,â says Mrs Sutcliffe,
âand weâll forgive Angeloâs attempt at humour.â
âSorry, mate,â says Angelo,
who, like the rest of us,
has absolutely no idea
whatâs got into Patrick.
Follow
At the end of English,
Ella waits until everyone
has left the classroom,
before picking up her books.
I untie my shoelaces
to avoid looking at Manx
who gives up waiting for me
and charges towards the canteen.
Ella walks slowly past my desk.
âWhatâs the term for
suffering Sutcliffe stoically?â she asks.
âAlliteration,â I answer.
She reaches into her backpack,
pulls out a pear
and places it on my desk.
âYour reward,â she says.
I pick up the fruit
and feel its soft warm skin.
âI could learn more from you
than Sutcliffe,â Ella says.
She smiles and walks to the door.
âAnd without Patrickâs violence,â I say.
âDo you want to share the pear, Jonah?â
I gather my books quickly,
but, in my