back there.”
Josh sighed. “It’s that obvious?” Riley nodded and Josh ran a hand through his hair. “Fuck, I don’t know what the fuck is going on. I’ve never been attracted to a man that I can remember, but fuck if I’m not constantly hard around Mark, and fantasizing about kissing him.”
“ Well he is hot.” Riley giggled again at the jealous look
on Josh’s face. “He’s really pretty.”
“ I know.” Josh tried to smile.
Riley took his hand. “Look, there’s nothing wrong with finding him attractive. Are you worried about what people will think?”
“ Yes….no…I don’t know, I don’t think so.” Josh sighed. Was he? No, not really, he actually never gave a flying fuck what people thought of him. “What the fuck is wrong with me?”
“ Nothing is wrong with you, just promise you’ll be open to it ok? I almost lost the best thing that ever happened to me because I was afraid. Trust me, it’s worth it Josh.”
~~
Mateo couldn’t get over it. Mark Patterson, he hadn’t seen him in years. Mark told him the whole story about his kidnapping and, well, other things; and Mateo felt his blood boiling. He guessed Mark got the hint he was getting ready to explode, because he changed the subject to Riley, and Mateo smiled. “God he annoyed me to no end.” Mateo smiled, thinking about Riley and his purple hippo.
A smile hit Mateo’s eyes, and Mark knew Mateo was in love. The rest-of-your-life kind of love. “I’m so happy for you Mateo.” Mark took his hand, he felt Mateo squeeze it.
“ I’m just glad you’re okay. I’m glad Josh got you out of there.” Mateo saw Mark’s eyes when Josh’s name was mentioned. “Uh oh.”
“ What?” Mark met Mateo’s eyes and felt his cheeks heating.
“ You have a crush on Josh.” Mateo sat back smiling. Oh yeah, Mark had it bad for Josh Montgomery. In all the years he’d served with Josh, he’d never even had a suspicion the man was gay. The way Josh had reacted to Mark, Mateo knew Josh didn’t think he was gay either.
“ No I don’t.” Mark looked anywhere but at Mateo.
“Besides, he’s straight isn’t he?” Wasn’t he?
“ The way he acted just now, when I said I’d watch you?” Mateo smirked. This must be what Josh was so freaked out about. He had feelings for Mark. Mateo had the sudden urge to run circles around Josh singing “You love Mark and you’re as gay as I am.” He fought it hard and barely won.
Mark let out a loud sigh. “So I wasn’t imagining it?”
“ Oh hell no,” Mateo laughed, and laughed even harder at Mark’s confused look. “That boy is all kinds of fucked up right now.”
Mark let out a loud relived sigh. “Okay, for a second there I thought my gaydar had driven off a cliff.”
“ Well, I think we should put Josh in the BI lane, he’s fucked plenty of women.” Mateo sat back and put his feet on the chair across from him. “But he’s a good guy.”
“ I got that much, and God he’s so swoon worthy.” Mark chuckled. “I wanna squee all the time when I’m in the same room with him.”
“ Squee?” Mateo arched a brow.
“ Never mind,” Mark laughed and got up. He opened the fridge and looked inside. “You guys staying for dinner?” “ We have a house we’re going to look at today. Riley actually likes Benson, and he’s decided to move here.” “ And what about you?” Mark grabbed chicken out of the fridge.
“ I love it here, it brings back good memories.” Mateo
looked at the kitchen counter. Really good memories.
“ Eww.” Mark’s nose wrinkled. “I don’t even want to know.”
Mateo laughed and hugged him. “We’ll be staying in town tonight, so can we come for lunch?”
“ Who’s having lunch? And where?” Josh stood in the kitchen door way with his arms crossed. God, he knew he was transparent, but being around Mat brought out a side of him he hated. The inferior side.
“ Well, if it’s alright with you, I was just telling Mark that Riley