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despite my famous name and the fact that I’d grown up within sight of Central Park).
    Leaving a local associate to stand watch at the hospital, I took the opportunity to pay a visit to the ancestral home, arriving unannounced, as I always did, because it seemed not to make the slightest difference whether my parents knew Iwas coming or not. They greeted me as if I’d been gone a week, when in fact it had been close to four years.
    “What good luck,” Mother said cheerily. “Uncle Harry’s coming to dinner. He’ll be so glad to see you. He always asks for news of you.”
    “Does he really?” I replied, mildly surprised to hear that he hadn’t given up on me by now.
    Mother liked doing things in the baronial style to which our means presumably entitled us, so dinner was like a state affair, for which everyone dressed, including me. My room was untouched, with racks of clothes that I’d left behind, and I had my pick of four virtually identical suits of evening wear. Mother had come along to advise, and tutted when she saw them, for naturally they were no longer quite in the pink of fashion. I caught her eyeing my waist to see if the measurements on record with my tailor needed to be adjusted and knew that a new array of dinner jackets would be awaiting me on my next visit. I also knew there was nothing in the world I could say that would dissuade her from ordering them.
    Dinner was charming and fun, and I heard all my parents’ news, which is hardly ever really news. The old things the very rich do are so stupendously wonderful that they almost never have to trouble themselves to do new ones.
    Naturally they wanted to hear all about my adventures, which they listened to with only the slightest air of condescension. They saw no great difference between someone like Rudolph Kintmacher of Johannesburg and Eddie Tucker of Council Bluffs, though Mother would say “What fun!” about the first and “How sad!” about the second, treatingthem both like elaborate fictions cooked up for her amusement.
    Uncle Harry, taking it a bit more seriously, wanted to know what I made of it all. “Do you really think Rita May’s soul lives in Eddie Tucker’s body?”
    “I truly don’t know what to think,” I told him. “Can you come up with another explanation?”
    While he was pondering this, my father shifted in his chair in a way that reliably summons the attention of the table and said, “What I can’t see is that it matters a damn. Just for the sake of argument, let’s say there is such a thing as a soul animating my body. And let’s suppose you could certify beyond doubt that this identical soul once animated the body of Julius Caesar. Isn’t that the theory, more or less?”
    “Yes, more or less.”
    “Well, what difference could it possibly make? Why would anyone care, since I don’t have access to the memories of Julius Caesar?”
    “But that’s the whole point,” I said. “Suppose you woke up one morning and found that you
did
have access to his memories.”
    “Then I hope someone would have the good sense to pack me off to the loony bin,” he said, and concluded the meal (and the discussion) by tossing his napkin onto the table in front of him.
    As hard as I tried to avoid being sequestered with Harry, he tried harder to corner me, so we finally ended up
tête-à-tête
.
    “I hope you won’t mind if I’m blunt,” he said.
    “I’ll brace myself for it, Uncle Harry.”
    He frowned, not quite sure he liked my jaunty tone. “It’s just that I wouldn’t want to see you lose yourself in this reincarnation business,” he said. “I’ve seen it happen to other men. They start a thing as a hobby, then it swallows them up. They come to a point where they can’t think of anything else, can’t get involved with anything else.”
    “Aren’t you swallowed up in your work?”
    “Yes,” he said, without hesitation. “And if I weren’t, I’d be useless to it.”
    “And the difference?”
    “The